Test

Are you a flirt? Natural Flirt
Chatting up men can feel really awkward for some, but for you flirting comes naturally. Your incredible sex appeal and sociable demeanor means that men feel comfortable talking to you, and these are what add to your charm.

When it comes to men you're interested in, you're not afraid to make the first move, but your approach is more friendly rather than sexual.

Coy laughs, head tilts, fun conversations, eye bats – these girly flirting tactics are your signature moves. But your winning trait has to be your intuitive ability to pace your advances, so even though you wish you could lay your paws on that hot guy right now, you know it's way wiser to proceed with light verbal flirting first.

How Romantic Are You? The Steady
When it comes to your love life, you appreciate the romantic gifts: Roses, chocolates and other sweet surprises. But ultimately what touch your heart most are those intangible little gestures of love, like how he pays attention to your wants and needs, really listens to you and is always there to share your joys and tears.

You're down-to-earth, and that's great because you don't expect the impossible from your partner or a fairy-tale relationship. Sure, you're super glad to have found someone to share your life with, but at the same time you need your own space too.

Still, keep feeding your relationship with romance day after day and you can strengthen it even more: Give him a kiss, a cuddle and ask him how he's doing. Indulge in fancy dinner dates and surprise him with a Valentine card every now and then. The more attention you give to your relationship, the closer you'll become.

What's happening

Yesterday night went to watch Bee Movie with Bob, Meihui and Dennis. It's a great movie with great animations and I actually laugh watching cartoon. It's goes to show how nice the movie is.

Tonight be recording VO for a drama then afterwhich eating dinner with the 3 kids in the show and my AD, going to Jackie Chan's new restaurant. Wonder if the food are nice or not. Thought of watching Saw4 after dinner ler.

Tomorrow I be going Singapore Discovery Centre with Kai Li. Finally! I am going finally! Always can't find friends to go with me. Finally Kai Li also wants to go.

The English kids drama episode 2 telecast got problem, got to do changes. Haiz... I really hate post.

By the way, I got exciting new hobby or rather interest that I took up................ I join......................................................................................................... POLE DANCING! My friends and others who know me must be so surpises. I am surprise at myself also lor. 可能时人老了，什么都敢尝试。School called Groove near Outram MRT, rather easy to go. So exciting!

My aim

My aim for this week or rather this month

• Colour hair and re-style
• Buy digital camera
• Sign up for gym / fitness centre
• Get projects stable down for next few months (MICWOO... waiting for you ah!!!)
• Buy new heels
• Fancl shopping AGAIN
• Plan for holiday either for Dec / Jan
• Go for dating services
• Buy new bags
• Watch Saw4
• Get ALL my claims for Mandy before I leave

The AVP just talk to me and told me to stay until Mandy's post are all done. However, I don't have to go office everyday. Need to see my contract and see how many days I should report to office liao.

Horrible start for this week

It's only Wed but had such horrible start for this week that I don't think things will get better for the rest of the days this week.
Came into office on Mon and find out that the weekend raining cos the office to flood, and its AGAIN according to the colleagues. God! Aren't they going to do anything about it? The stupid BIG hole in the ceiling above Sam's desk is so un-stable that I think that it might fall anytime. Due to the super flood, the sponsors items are damaged and then we have to pay. God! All these are un-necessary lor. All those damaged control that I have to do and re-adjusting of budget really kills.
Tue night suppose to dump out Ep1-3 for TX but there is technicial problems (which is un-necessary AGAIN). So have to postphone submissions for 2 days. God! The extra cos for the deck will be in my budget also.
My best friend for 14 years, her grandma has bone cancer. Doctor says she don't have much days to leave, so instead of staying in the hospital and taking in all the gems, might as well stay at home. It's like 等死, same case as my great grandma years back.
I got 30 more days before I leave current company. I really need a new place, new environment, new colleagues, new project. What I really need is a break, a holiday, before I break apart.

Tired

So tired and aching. Did stunt double yesterday. Was so funny yesterday before the job. I was at Bugis Junction waiting for Yan Bin, however he was waiting at Bishan Junction. I mean, the AD sms him Bishan Junction. I only read Junction and I only thought of Bugis. When I found out Yan Bin was at Bishan, I book a cab to Junction 8. When I reached, only to find out later from Yan Bin that the AD sms him the wrong location. AHHHH!!!!!!!!! Then we went back to Bugis in Yan Bin's car. God! What a mess.

As for the stunt I did, I wasn't happy with my performances. Right feet mother thumb bleed. Both legs all full of bruises. Can't walk properly. I need to re-train again. Am not flexible enough.

Headache

I am right about this issue, actually am most of the time right about my work.

I SHOULD NOT DO POST-PRODUCTION

I HATE POST-PRODUCTION

I HATE PLANNING FOR SUBMISSION OF SERIES TO BE TELECAST

Mandy wraps on 21st Oct, no more filming. Right now, it's down to getting everything in order and in time for telecast. Still got sponsors logo to be scan in, end tag to be done, OCBC got to get back to me about the music... alot alot of things to do. Am having headach now, very pain. I really hate doing this part of production. Planning of my slots are killing me. 18 more days to Episode 1 telecast date and it isn't done yet. No opening, no CB bumpers, no end credits, no tagline, no tagline music. God! This is getting scary man.


Tommorrow got to go Cutting Edge by 10am, collect stuffs, Then come back office and deliver reels to Kids Central. It's so tiring. Am the Project Manager but my job more like runner.


Thur, stunt is confirm. Yan Bin just call me and ask for my measurement cos I be the double and MediaCorp got to have the clothes just right for me. Wondering who are the crews, AP, propsman etx. Director I know who already, followed him before when I was in MediaCorp. Very nice guy. Hahahaha... Same size as Michael Woo... Hahahaha...This is my new hairstyle. I like it alot. Do you? Ellery and Sharon and others say I look better with this hairstyle. Still not used to the front but I will maintain it. It's good to have a change, after all these 28 years. One of my Senior for stunts and teacher in Kuen Wushu. Seems like I am always hanging out with China people, now my Mandarin very 'China' accents also. Hahahaha...

Fri si mom's birthday, got to have dinner with her. Don't know what to give her. Might be going to Yan Bin's restaurant and eat.

27th and 28th got filming again. I have not have a single day of rest or non-work days for ages.

我现在的心情

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WHe8P2dgI1E
杨丞琳 - 缺氧

作詞：大麥 作曲：左安安 演唱：楊丞琳

春天慢慢一點點發芽
快樂開始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模樣
幸福開始組裝
夜裡滿園的茉莉花香
月光灑落看不見憂傷
旋轉木馬前那個廣場
愛情開始滋長
想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的現象
胸口微微的發燙
想你有時會缺氧
臉紅呼吸不正常
這是不是幸福的症狀
不知不覺又缺氧

.夜裡滿園的茉莉花香
月光灑落看不見憂傷
旋轉木馬前那個廣場
愛情開始滋長
想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的症狀
不知不覺又缺氧
無法移動的夢想
就算沒有人鼓掌　我也不會受傷
不會稀釋的信仰
心穿越磚牆　在你的身旁
想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的症狀
胸口微微的發燙
不知不覺又缺氧

我的心情

蔡依林 一个人

从皮包里扯出我们的照片 沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多尝几口想念 已经没什么人会埋怨
晴天阴天今天又是星期天 唯一的打算是心更乱一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间 出门或不出门没差别

一个人 到底应该选右边或左边
两个人 每一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人 偶尔感到寂寞在所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边

一个人 我重新适应一切不方便
两个人 不一定就成全一个世界
一个人 关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线 过去那些情节更明显
Wow…… 到底应该是右边或左边
呜…… 更明显

第一次听这首歌的时候我哭了，心里在想起谁呢？只有我自己知道。

Lost

Had a super packed week last week. Lost my favourite handphone that I got for my this year present on Thur night. It's all my fault for drinking so much. I am so sad for 2 main reasons: (1)The handphone is a gift and it's my dream mobile in my dream colour. (2)All my contacts are gone.

Finally got time to buy a new handphone on Sat afternoon, got a N76. Why I never buy the same mobile back? Cos I guess I am not fated and not suitable to have the phone cos it's the 1st time I lost a phone for the past 28 years!

I hope the new phone will bring me luck. Am thinking of getting a laptop and digital camera next month.

Talking about digital camera, Sam lost his camera while senting me home on Thur night. Sorry about it Sam!

Should be resting

I should be resting right now but I guess I am scare of being alone. Am at Michael's pub again, with Michael (of cos!), Yan Bing and Chun Yu Shan Shan. Been drinking for don't know how many times this week.

Tomorrow coming back here again.

am so bored with my life. Am so bored being alone.

7 days a week

My this whole week is burn with appointments and works. Went to watch Yan Bing do stunts yesterday, then went dinner with him, Wan Liang and Yang Guang. It's great! After which went St. James with them cos have another group of stunts people just finish a show there led by Picasso. Drank too much, now not feeling that well.

Work and work non stop, this week is passing too fast. It's Wed already and there are alot of stuffs not done yet and unfinish.

52 more days left

To spend

Got alot of thing that I wana buy and do, but either am too lazy to go shop for them or just don't know how to buy.

1. Laptop, with everything install inside (words, excel, msn, burner etc). Be great if someone will buy for me and I just pay and use. Like the pink laptop that was advertise.
2. Digital camera
3. New heels
4. Rebonding
5. New hairdo with new colour
6. Photography camera

MAIN TOP: HOLIDAY!!!!

Bee going Taiwan with her friend in Dec, at first say we go together. so sad. I can't go. Got project on hand. I really want to take a break after all projects end this year before I work again. 2 weeks break is more than I ask for, hoping by that time I have a boyfriend to go holiday with me.

Updates

• Directed 3 scenes last Sat with the super regular DOP that I always use. Actually should be directing all scenes on Sat but am having headache and on top of it, I am still learning
• 1 of my crew almost fight with a civilian during unloading of equipments, haiz.. Why is it always him?
• Casts call me 导演 on set, not used to it
• Might be filming a project for 3 months overseas, to be confirm in Nov

Meanwhile, very tired. Came office this morning at 6am to digitize shots. Now stomach pain from the stupid black coffee I had. Got to got Tanjong Pagar later, droping tapes at editing house and TV12. Eyes pain pain

Shagged

Have been dreaming of my holidays and break for some many months. Had a good an long talk with Ellery last night. He said that I need a break, to re-charged, to think about my future, to rest. He says that I should film a short film, then use it as my portfolio. It's a pathway to being a Director also. I am stuck as AD and PM positions for too long already.

PM jobs are really not me, alot of networks and emails and people to handle.
AD jobs are tiring and non-rest from pre-production to production.

I guess I really need a break to re-think about my future.

A chance Finally

I finally got a chance to shoot a scene all by myself! With the help of another Director by my side lar. The main thing is that it the first half of the scene in the PILOT episode! So happy! It's 2 pages long, and I only did my "homework" on the spot itself. Wow! I can shoot man. That scene involve 4 casts and it's in the coffee shop. However, I over-run, causing the orginial Director got to rush for the rest of the scenes for the day.

I seriously need a break after all these projects this year. Even the little kid in the show says that I look very tired and told me to take a break. Haiz. What's the use of having people knowing me and asking me to do their projects? What's the use of doing so many projects and earing the money? The stress and tired don't seems to make me happy anymore. I am hoping for a guy to love me and pamper me. Have been alone and single for so long. Feel very sad and depress.

Should I go for blind date? Any suggestions anyone? Any guy to introduce?

Personality tests

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

The Real You
Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

My peraonality love test.

Here is the analysis:You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

A confident person

You like to do activities on your own. You are confident and that's why you don't care what other people think about you. You are ambitious and often worry about your future. You don't like to be a follower because you like to be independent - this means you are always trying your best to be the leader. You are attractive to other people because of your confidence and intelligence.

You value your friendships: 60%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Nosy Level: 80%

You have a wild and crazy imagination, and this can lead you to being very nosy as you strive to check out whether your theories are true. You get very occupied with your own thoughts and create fantastic stories out of the things that you think are happening in people's lives. It might be a good idea to concentrate more on your own life.

Here is the analysis:You are interested in the opposite sex. Though you have already got a guy you like, you still date with other guys. Is that right?

Jealousy Test

Jealousy Level: 50%
You harbor hidden feelings of jealousyYou easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!", but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"

How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?

You will never expect to control your boyfriend or husband. Your boyfriend and you will take turns to make decision and the decision is often acceptable to both of you. Whatever you want to let him know, you can just tell him straightforwardly. This is a good relationship, a pretty modern one.

What are the causes of your conflicts with friends?

A map and a compass are a sign of seriousness. However, you often forget the time and place for your appointment with friends which bores them right? So, don't mix up your schedule and recheck it in order to follow the schedule correctly.

Here is the analysis:You are more concerned with yourself rather than with others. Superficially, you are a quiet and imaginative person. As you choose to sit at the back, you can converse with your friends although you do not talk a lot.

Here is the analysis:You love fair relationship with your boyfriends. You like a simple wedding. It can merely be cohabitation without wedding, or you live separately with your husband. Despite all these, you will still have a good time together until you become a grandmother or a grandfather. Then, you are still good friends who always living the rest of your life together.

Here is the analysis:You had a dream when you were young. For you, having friends is important, so you have a lot of close friends who share the same dream and interest. You and your life companion have similar personalities.

Here is the analysis:You are very direct, which might freak them out. Something along the lines of "Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror?" might slip from your lips.

Your Hidden Talent
Here is the analysis:The Mass Communicator You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

Who is your dream guy?
Here is the analysis:He is wild and adventurous. His path is often against the world. He does what he wants when he feels like. His type of girl is quite like him, independent and wise. If you love freedom and willing to risk, go for this guy.

You are very creative. Your wedding should be unique and people will remark about it for some time afterwards.

Although you are emotional, you have full control of behavior. Being patient is your unique quality.

Your future friend: You have a big sister confidence and leadership. So you friends are mostly vulnerable and always need your help. You can't resist helping these people and eventually you all will become good friends.

Your travel plan: You will travel to exotic countries like Tibet, India, Egypt. You enjoy visiting ancient ruins, lost woods and spending time in a hut in peaceful neighborhood.

Your future financial status: You are a big spender! You always spend on friends and luxury goods without feeling guilty. No matter how much you earn, you churn to match it. Your credit cards get thinner and thinner from frequent swipes. The figure in your bank account is not what you enjoy seeing.

The last period of your life: You like to be in an peaceful environment with your old man. You get annoyed by the noise and turbulence caused by your grandchildren. They will even think of you as a mean person.

Your inner energy brings you through life. You will achieve your goal in life as long as you take it easy.

You are cheerful but watch out for gossips. Friends think that you stick your nose into most matters. But because of your cheerfulness, you are often forgiven. Try to be far away as possible from gossips.

You are like most other ladies who dream of a memorable wedding.

What if your boyfriend goes out with another girl?

You are like most others who take the middle track. Although you won't get over-worried, you are not too optimistic either. You overcome bad times after a while and patience will bring you happiness.

Because of your kind nature, you always find it hard to turn down people in need. You always want to do so many things at once but eventually you might not achieve anything. Try to focus on one thing at a time and you will surely be successful.

You are too careful to reveal yourself to others. No one can tell what is under your smiling face.

You only think about having affairs with another but you will never cheat on your loved one in real life.

Your Sixth Sense Score: 67%

You are reasonable and won't get blown by temptations. However, you might miss some great opportunities.

You like to know secrets about people. You are quite superstitious. Although you are very careful about spending your money, you often end up spending a lot of money on unnecessary stuff.

You care for people. Other people's small matters easily shock you. You look brave, but in fact you are hiding weaknesses inside. You often talk about your faults or things that you think you could have done better again and again, though no one criticizes you about them.

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. You are an ambitious person. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You are an ordinary and down-to-earth person. You are also tough and will meet success in important issues without many difficulties. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You are self-confident and happy with your life.

You radiate sympathy and fellowship. You concern yourself chiefly with the people around you and place a high value on harmonious human contacts. You are friendly, tactful, and sympathetic. You are persevering, conscientious and orderly even in small matters, and inclined to expect others to be the same. You are particularly warmed by approval and sensitive to indifference. Much of your pleasure and satisfaction comes from the warmth of feeling of people around you. You tend to concentrate on the admirable qualities of other people and are loyal to respected persons, institutions, or causes, sometimes to the point of idealizing whatever you admire.

You have the gift of finding value in other people's opinions. Even when these opinions are in conflict, you have faith that harmony can somehow be achieved and you often manage to bring it about. To achieve harmony, you are ready to agree with other's opinions within reasonable limits. You need to be careful however, that you don't concentrate so much on the viewpoints of others that you lose site of your own.

You are mainly interested in the realities perceived by your five senses, so you become practical, realistic, and down-to-earth. You take great interest in the unique differences in each experience. You appreciate and enjoy your possessions. You enjoy variety but can adapt well to routine.

You are in your best in jobs that deal with people and in situations where cooperation can be brought about through good will. You are found in jobs such as teaching, preaching, and selling. Your compassion and awareness of physical conditions often attracts you to health professions, where you can provide warmth, comfort, and patient caring. You are less likely to be happy in work demanding mastery of abstract ideas or impersonal analysis. You think best when talking with people, and enjoy communicating. You have to make a special effort to be brief and businesslike and not let sociability slow you down on the job.

You like to base your plans and decisions upon known facts and on your personal values. While liking to have matters decided or settled, you do not necessarily want to make all the decisions yourself. You run some risk of jumping to conclusions before you understand the situations. If you have not taken time to gain first-hand knowledge about a person or situation, your actions may not have the helpful results you intended. For example, in the beginning of a new project or job, you may do things you assume should be done, instead of taking the time to find out what is really wanted or needed. You have many definite "shoulds" and "should nots," and may express these freely.

You find it is especially hard to admit the truth about problems with people or things you care about. If you fail to face disagreeable facts, or refuse to look at criticism that hurts, you will try to ignore your problems instead of searching for solutions.

You are logical, smart and inventive. It's okay for you to make people think that you are a little self-centered. You just focus on what you're doing.

Do you have a chance with the one you love?

A brave person like you never misses a chance. In any case, if you don't make any efforts to meet people, no relationship is going to get started.

You are a quick thinker, efficient, and always in a rush. If you expect everyone to be like you, this only causes frustration and stress. You don't want to waste your time, but can be careless and pessimistic.

You've made your way well in this world despite all the obstacles you've had to faced. You have survived a lot more troubles than most people. You have had to deal with difficult people, ridiculous rules, and tempestuous relationships.
Love for you can be as intense as the fire on the face of the sun. You are either very calm on the inside when there is a lot of insanity going on around you, or you shut people up and take charge. You can go to a movie by yourself. You are as comfortable alone as you are with others. You are angry at your parents but you can't change them.
You are a great lover when you find that rare mate who is your equal, otherwise your relationships do not go well. Life is a roller coaster, and you are finding ways to make the good times better. You love sports.

The most important thing in your life is a person you like. The type of friends that you want is understanding and sensible. Though you are happy with your present situation, you think a change would be better. You expect so much from your relationships. You are an academic expert. You are interested in researching the complexity of human minds. You are a researcher who love doing various kinds of experiment. Hey, we know that you break the law sometimes. One of the example is that you drive too fast on the highway. When communicating with the one you like, you think you know him/her, but sometimes you're not sure. You rely on your parents so much and want them to always be close to you. You are easy-going and optimistic. If your boyfriend told you that he wanted to stop the relationship, you might say "It's fine with me", give him your biggest smile and wave good-bye easily. You are scared of being cheated on by others and don't want to be disappointed. That's why you seem to be contented with unrequited love.

You're a socialite. You go out to a party frequently and hang around with lots of people. You're very enthusiastic, ambitious and love challenges. You are not much attractive to the opposite sex. However, you still have something so special, which makes them like to get along with you.You are an honest person and have a unique way of seeing things. Your friends see you as a quite friendly person. It would be very difficult for you to fall in love with someone. But when you love, honesty is your first priority. You are an emotional person. You think good luck doesn't exist. Reality is built on practicalities. It's probably safe to say that you do not buy lottery tickets.
People often attribute unexpected events to good luck or bad luck. When something goes well, it's because of good luck. When things turn sour, it's plain bad luck. Your answer reveals what kind of luck (what's inside the box) you think will befall you in an unexpected circumstance (the box on the road).

Your emotional controlled rate: 40%

You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.
Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

Am I in love?

Recently the love bug is within me again. Not sure how he feels about me, never ask. Maybe he sees me just as a normal friend or colleague. Just find myself always going to his office and talk to him. seeing him makes my problems and troubles go away. Talking to him is relaxing and comforting.

Today, was in a super emotion moods and had terrible mood swings. Went to his office and cried. Although he is busy with works and never really did much but I feel rather console by just seeing him and with him been there.

Right now, I don't want to think too much. I hope to focus in the projects I am in and pray that everything went on well. Got problems with writers, network and sponsor. I can't really function as PM. The duties are too heavy and burden is too much. I can control burgets but controlling the whole team is another issues.

Got problems with my health these days. Went to see doctor on Wed midnight, doctor says I have serious gastric problem and infection which might lead to 盲肠炎. If really 盲肠炎, then I will have to go for operation. Shit! I got to nurse back my health. Colleagues have really been concerning me. Getting me to eat on time and making sure that I got enough rest. Should be on 2 days mc for Thur and today, but there are just too many things to do that I can't afford the rest. Parents are angry that I am on mc but still go to work. “你又不是赚很多，做到半条命。” The medicial bill is so expensive! The injection and medicines cost $60! Haiz...

Just hoping to go for a break soon, before I really break down and die.

What's up

Been rather busy and pack for this week, have not fully rest at all even after sitcom ends. 12th end filming for the opening, then back to week days full of works.

14th: Glenn's chalet, drink too much

15th: watch 881, not my taste and style of movie. Don't like it. After that, went to meet Michael and discuss about his drama. Met at his pub, drink again.

16th: Michael's project meeting at 1pm, then after my work at DF, when his office to teach his new ADs. Finish at 11pm, went to meet Michael and drink again.

17th: Working in DF, then meeting for Jeremy's project at 9pm. Then got back to DF to digitize all Glenn's tapes. Do until 18th, 430pm.

30 hous never sleep, so tired. The moment I reach home, I just pop upto my bed and sleep. Woke at 10pm plus. Bath, eat and did my FANCL rountine. After finally finish puting the products on my face, I felt better and more pretty. Hahahahaha....

Now, in DF again. Got rehearsal for the kids drama. Just wana make sure that everything goes smoothly. ADs arrive late... That's something that I can't forgive in. Abit messy in the begining but I manage to solve it.

Tomoorw, it's back to a brand new weekday. Work work work.....

Pack again

What have I got myself into again.

Agreed to yet another project as Line Producer last night.

Now on hand I am doing

1. PM for a Kids Drama
2. PM for short film
3. Line Producer for a Drama (Mandarin)

Lucky, non is as AD. AD too many paper works to do. Pray that I can survive everything and do all projects smoothly.

Mandy Mighty Adventures

Finally wrap the sitcomon 12th Aug, the official title is "80's Rewind". Hipcups and people personal attacking each other can be seen but the project is all over. Now I can fully concentrate on the Kids Drama and the short film.

Current 1st ADis great and he gets everything going, got my 2nd AD... Theresa... hahaha... PA is great too, casting for main casts are done, now left episodic casts.

Waiting for the whole project to end and I can leave. End Nov... looking forward.

Blank mind

Don't know what's my mind thinking about and sort of when blank at the moment. Can't focus on my work, so got in here to blog instead. Filming when on okay so far, hipcups everyday but still manage to pass through. Crew, production team, casts and Directors are great.

First time working with Glenn and Canter (Directors), they are rather patient with me. Know new crew, Jason Yun (Soundman) and Wei Min (CA). Young chaps full of enengy.

Gurmit Singh, Sue Tan, David Aw, Ru-ping and Sharon Wong are excellence casts who don't have any "airs" and follow according to schedules without much complaint.

Kids drama FINALLY going somewhere. New AD reporting work on 01st Aug. Did I mention that the previous AD left the project SUPER UNPROFESSIONALLY? God! I came back from lunch one day, and she just packed her stuffs without saying a word. Haiz... some people can be so .... New changes to Kids drama, but still can hang on with Piao's help. Can't wait to get it start and I can leave the project fast. At least my crew is fix already.... Same crew as Solid Gold... Hahaha....

Don't know what else to blog... So post some photos instead ba...

Taken on my bday in Dream forest. Zhao Min wants to to draw 4D numbers, Piao took my photo withing me knowing.

My "dearest" friend whom used to ne so nice and caring towards me.

懊脑

7月15日
新期天
时间：6点30分
地点：工司

做人真辛苦，当拥有的时候却不珍惜而失去的时候却后悔。那一天如果我没一时冲动而跟他分手的话，或者我现在就不会那么孤单，也不会把工作来麻醉自己。

真的很想他。不只道现在的他是否比和我在一起的时侯更开心？我现在的心情，不爱歌手不过爱她的歌词。

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4CVnmz_OGs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eYzKnv7pyCI

我这几个月的心情和心声

習慣
歌手：楊丞琳 作曲：陳忠義填詞：陳忠義 編曲：林從胤

分手已經兩年半　我們再度向寂寞取暖 沒有牽掛和不安

＊失去彼此的陪伴　我們學著將回憶剪斷　拒絕想念的試探
　曾經以為總會找到　說服自己的答案　情緒卻在風浪平息後　被一通電話打翻＊

＃我已經漸漸習慣　忙碌把生活填滿　和自己分享晚餐　試著活得更理所當然　我已經漸漸習慣　對感情順其自然　只是我還不明白　失去你的天空　為何看來不那麼蔚藍＃

REPEAT＊＃

相愛到了解的默契　怎能說忘記就忘記 我想我已經習慣你

REPEAT＃

Terrible feeling

Same thing happen to me yet again, gastric flu is back. When I was bathing this Morning, vomited even when i had only mushroom soup and black coffee last night and nothing this Morning. The few seconds of my vomit was a horrible feeling. I felt my whole stomach cramp together and I can't stand up.

This is not good. It's not worth to die because of projects.

God!

I am still working in office. God! Been working since 10am and it's almost 1am now. Tomorrow still need to go MCS at 10am. I want to sleep! I want to rest!

Thanks Bee! For staying in office with me even till now. Love you babe!

Mad rush

Filming for sitcom is going to start soon, have 7 more days to prepare. Still have dozen and 1 unfinish stuffs. Ahhhhhh...... And the remainding 7 days are so super packed!

Tomorrow: Auditions for SG at 1030am and 2pm. VO recording for Mandy at 530pm. In between have to settle scripts for Mandy. I have not read any Mandy scripts yet. Shit!

Thur: 4pm onwards, Mandy meetings

Fri: Settle all things for SG

Sat: Check props in the Morning. Afternoon SG imaging

Sun: SG rehearsal

Next week, I only got 2 days left to settle ALL SG items to prevent any hipcups.

Then 18th onwards, hell of filming. My filming days are like film 1 day then off 2 days, then film 3 days off 1 day, then film 2 days then off 2 days, then film 1 day off 4 days, then film 5 days then off 1 day, then film 1 day again. Total got 13 filming days.

The other round will be like film 3 days off 7 days, then film 1 day off 1 day, then film 4 days off 5 days, the film 1 day off 1 day, then film 3 days. Total got 12 days. But main thing is, in between got more breaks than mine, so that's make me has no time to do any last minute changes or watever.

Then Mandy filming starts from 18th Aug onwards. Lalalala.... I be taking a break or rather 1 month holiday ( I hope ) after SG & Mandy wraps. Nov still got short film to do. 天啊！ 我又当烂好人了！Cecilia, Bee, Zhao Min keep telling me to relax and warn me 有钱没命花. I know... I know...

Am aiming to finish current on hand projects, and then after that focus in finding a boyfriend.

Bless me!

Heart is bleeding

Have been making myself busy with works ( 2 projects on hand) and reading on novels. However, the more I make myself busy, the more my heart ache. I miss him... Out of all the ex-boyfriends I had... I miss him the most.

I cried afew nights ago... I went back to the places that we went before... I even went his house nearby... Don't know why I did that, maybe I am hoping that I will get to see him? But I will kill myself if I saw him with his current girlfriend. I don't know what I am doing. Am very tired. Waiting for the next special someone to touch my heart and sweep me off my feet.

I miss you... Not sure if you will be able to read this blog or not... but I just want to say out my thoughts... The real feelings and words from my heart... I really miss you... Tok...

Alone in office

It's Sunday and I am back in office working. Need to finish up the works that I can ASAP before filming starts for Sitcom. Just finish doing the timeline and schedules for Kids Drama.

Sort out the names to be summit for going to MCS. Print out scripts for Coeway. Call Artists and remind them that I did book them for rehearsals and photo shoots. Still have alot of stuffs to do. Have not eaten anything yet. So busy that I am not even hungry.

Just wana come in here before I resume works again.

No time out

Yesterday will be sort of the end of my relax periods. Reach office at 1030am, trying to finish my Sitcom stuffs before I be packed for the Afternoon. Had lunch at 1230pm, then 1pm had meeting with Art Director for the Sitcom. Afterwhich, another meeting at 3pm. This time it's for the Kids Drama. The meeting ended at almost 6pm. Sent afew important emails out before rushing off to meet Angeline at 7pm.

Had arrange with her to watch Spider Lillies. Rainie Yang's acting has improve, it's not her usual Idol Dramas that she normally do. The movie is great, it's the type of movie that I will direct and of my style.

Reach home at almost 1230am. Bath, read novel, relax for awhile. After reading Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist, I bought Eleven Minutes and By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept. Finished reading By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept last night, will start Eleven Minutes soon. I think I will start to buy Paulo Coelho's whole collection, don't know why but like the way he wrote and his style. His other novels are The Pilgrimage, The Valkyries, The Fifth Mountain, Veronika Decides To Die, Warrior Of The Light: The Manual.

Enough of side tracking, so after I read finish, I start doing the timeline and schedules for the Kids Drama. I start at almost 330am, after reading, went 7-11 and buy drink and afew smoke breaks. By the time I am sort of too tired to continue the schedules and wana sleep, it's 1230pm. Had actually wanted to sleep but came out of my room and just switch on the pc, continue working until Mum asks me to eat lunch with her at 130pm.

I am so freaking tired now that my eyes can barly open and forcus. Haiz... I just hope that I can do the Sitcom and Kids Drama properly and smoothly. Yawn...

My schedules so far
Sitcom
19th June: View casting tapes at 11am and 2pm
20th June: Rehearsal 4-7pm
21st June: Rehearsak 9am-12pm
22th June: Imaging at 10am
2th July: Photo shoots from 10am onwards
3rd-5th July: Rehearsal from 1pm onwards
6th July: Imaging at 10am
15th July (SUNDAY!!): Rehearsal from 130pm onwards
18th July-19th Aug: FILMING STARTS

Kids Drama
June-July: All 13 episodes scripting to be in
Aug-Sept: FILMING
Oct: Delievery

• Need to get AD in by July
• Need to summit timeline and schedules by 18th, that's coming Mon
• Need to form my team
• Need to organise meetings (internal & external)
• Meet sponsors
• Meet Kids Central people

So, dear friends, after reading my schedules. If I cancel appointment with you, I am sorry. I think, if you all don't mind, I can meet late at night. When my eyes can't focus on the pc screen anymore. Hahahaha.... Thanks all for now...

Bintan Photos

The party that went for the trip.

Taken on the last day, behind is the swimming pool and the beach.

In the pub on the 2nd night.


The villa that we stayed in. It's big and nice with super clean fresh air.


The vehicle that we traveled around the resort.


The tap in the toilets. So cute! So cool!

Bintan Trip

Had a great time in Bintan over the weekends. Arrived at Bintan resort at 11pm, went walk around then ordered dinner room service.

Spent the next day in the beach, playing banana boat and snokling. Then laze on the beach. It's been a relaxing and enjoying weekends for me. Will upload the photos soon.

Am waiting for the next holiday trip.

Your past life diagnosis

This is what I was in previous life.

I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Northern England around the year 1125. Your profession was that of a digger, undertaker.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Person with huge energy, good in planning and supervising. If you were just garbage-man, you were chief garbage-man.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
You are bound to solve problems of pollution of environment, recycling, misuse of raw materials, elimination of radioactivity by all means including psychological methods.

Thanks!

Last night, went to eat dinner with Ellery and Sharon. The dinner was great, afterwhich we went Liquid Kitchen at Serangoon Garden. They are so nice, gave me a mini birthday cake, a brownie actually. Thanks!

Then just went lunch with colleagues, they gave me one of my dream present. A Nokia 7373 in the color I love, PINK and a PINK pouch. I am so touch that I actually cried. So embarrassing. Ellery and Sharon trick me, I never expect tham to pool money in for the present also.

Thanks to everyone!

Michael, Canter, Glenn, Jenny, Piao, Chau Min, Bee Bee, Avril, Theresa, Sam, Sharon Wong, Ellery.

THANK YOU! LOVE YOU ALL!

Disappointment

Things just don't fall in place the way that I wish. Have to reject THAT company 2 projects cos I have already agree to do current company another project as PM. THAT company boss was disappointed and I hope that she isn't angry with me. I really wana do your's but the offer came rather late I guess, and the PM job is offer to be since 2 months ago. I have the reply to them postphone until now. Well, I can't offend current company and risk having my name and reputation at stake I guess.

So I am stuck until Nov, told THAT company boss that I will go over as soon as my projects wrap. I really hope to work with the boss again.

Too many things happen at the same time for my career, I am sometimes at lost of what to do.

Quotes for thoughts

Was reading a book last night, find it very meaningful and brings lights to my life. There are some quotes that I like and of meaning to me. Thanks to Kai Li for recommending the book to me. Here are some quotes I like from the book THE ALCHEMIST BY PAULO COELHO.

"What's the world's greatest lie? At a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate."

"If you start out by promising what you don't have yet, you'll lose your desire to work toward getting it."

"The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never to forget your roots."

"When you want something, all the universe conspires to help you achieve it."

"People need not fear the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they need and want."

"When you want something with all your heart, that's when you are closest to the SOUL OF THE WORLD. It's always a positive force."

"If you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it. And, if you improve on the present, what comes later will also be better. Forget about the future, and live each day according to the teachings. Each day, in itself, brings with it an eternity."

"It's not what enters men's mouths that's evil. It's what comes out of their mouths."

"One is loved because one is loved. No reasons is needed for loving."

"Listens to your heart because wherever your heart is, that is where you'll find your treasure."

"Your eyes show the strength of your soul."

"If a person is living out his destiny, he knows everything he needs to know. There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure."

"When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us become better, too."

"Life really is generous to those who pursue their destiny."

From the quotes above and after reading the book, I have come out with this thoughts.

"Keep your thoughts positive, because your thoughts become your words.

Keep your words positive, because your words become your behaviours.

Keep your behaviours positive, because your behaviours become your habits.

Keep your habits positive, because your habits become your values.

Keep your values positive, because your values become your destiny."

I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today whole office only me, casting director and account lady working only. So sian. Just went to Bugis, bought some more FANCL products, costs me $400. Shit! Spent too much liao. Need to really save and spend less for the rest of the month until next pay cheques come in. Paid Sam the money for Bintan trip also. Shit! Double shit! 1st day of the month and I am going broke.

Okay... my greatest and best birthday present is MONEY. Should any of my friends out there who read this and stil don't know what to give me... you know what I really need and want lar... Beside BOYFRIEND. Heeheehee.......

Vesak Day

Tuesday night, while having dinner with Ellery and others, current company AVP call me and tell me that as for June onwards, I will be paid the other project money also. Hahaha... I have not agree to do and did not even sign any contract and she confirm me liao. It's the sky high rate that I ask for and she agree to the rate, so what else can i say. Unless THAT company I have been waiting pay me higher lor. Hahaha...

Yesterday, went to watch Shrek 3 with Victor. Quite a funny story with the ususal "happily ever after" fairytale. The guy beside me was rather irrating, with him laughing at even points which are not funny or sad points like the father in-law died. After watching, went to do abit of shopping, bought a sweat pant, gym bag and a knee support (for my training). The knee support I got the wrong size, need to exchange. Hopefully can be exchange.

Haiz... No one seems to be in office today. All I know is that AVP on leave to do personally stuff, Casting Director will reach before 12pm course got auditions. Later 3pm I got meeting with 1 of the Director.

Wanna watch MEN IN WHITE next week. Anyone interested?

What should I do?

Current company AVP just talk to me, she wana book me for the next project ASAP and other projects. If I agree then I be working for another 6 months staring from Sept, that's mean Sept to Feb. Aiya, I am still waiting for that company reply. That company boss says she will reply me next week. If that company offer is good, then how? Aiya. Haiz... But secretly I am very happy course I have been so packed until this year. Maybe my luck is changing. Maybe my career is going some where and going up. *Cross my fingers*

However, current company wants me to do PM for kids drama. Haiz! Another kids drama. Abit sian ler. Wana be Director soon ler.

Birthday in 8 more days.

PMS

Have been on rather moody these few days, don't know why. Just don't feel like smiling, talking, eating, sleeping, don't feel like doing anything. Only can work and wushu training. Maybe it's because I am aging and growing old, so there is abit of sadness in me. A lonely, aging woman also called 老姑婆. It's not like I don't have boyfriend I will die, but who don't want love from boyfriend? Which guy / gal don't wish to be pamper and loved by their partner?

10 more days to my birthday. Will he remembers? Will anyone remember? Can't wait to leave for Bintan on the 8th, wana leave this sad place for awhile to re-charge, re-fresh. To be the happy and cheerful Cherlyn when I first step into Dream Forest. Cos if not, sooner or later, all my colleagues will start to dislike me. Heard these song while writing my blog. So sad. So me.

我懷念的
演唱: 孫燕姿 作詞：姚若龍　作曲：李偲菘　編曲：Martin Tang

我問為什麼　那女孩傳簡訊給我　而你為什麼　不解釋　低著頭沉默
我該相信你很愛我　不願意敷衍我　還是明白你已不想挽回什麼

想問為什麼　我不再是你的快樂　可是為什麼　卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著　把愛都走曲折　假裝了解是怕　真相太赤裸裸
狼狽比失去難受

我懷念的是無話不說　我懷念的是一起做夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後　還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日　也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空　最緊的右手　最暖的胸口
(誰記得)　誰忘了

我懷念的是無言感動　我懷念的是絕對熾熱
我懷念的是你很激動　求我原諒抱得我都痛
我記得你在背後　我記得我顫抖著
記得感覺洶湧　最美的煙火　最長的相擁

誰愛的太自由　誰過頭太遠了　誰要走我的心　誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走　誰忘了看著我　誰讓愛變沉重　誰忘了要給你溫柔

(我懷念的)　我還有想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日　也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空　最緊的右手　最暖的胸口
我放手　我讓座　假灑脫　誰懂我多麼不捨得
太愛了　所以我　沒有哭　沒有說

我和我追逐的夢 演唱: 劉德華 作詞 : 周治平

飄流已久 在每個港口能稍作停留
喜樂和哀愁今生不能由我　任風帶我停停走走　
孤獨依舊　多希望你能靠在我的胸口
卻不願痴心得到你的溫柔　人群之中裝在冷漠 　
淚不敢流 讓命運牽引著我南北西東
看世間悲歡離合難分難捨　而誰在為我守候
我和我追逐的夢擦肩而過　永遠也不能重逢
我和我追逐的夢一再錯過　只留下我獨自寂寞　卻不敢回頭

一生最爱的人 演唱：伍佰

你 用你独特的温柔 狠狠的刺痛了我
证明你已不爱我 你的干脆 你那有心的依偎
普通朋友的相对 以为我都没感觉

答应我 如果要离开我 请一定跟我说
我会祝福 让你走 如果没把握
不要说你爱我 这样是欺骗我 我的心儿好难受

我 没有误会你什么 因为看到你背后
藏着满满的冷漠 你的眼泪 流得那么的虚伪
像电影里的情节 其实你都没所谓

如果说 你还是爱着我
让我俩再从头 我会好好的把握
因为你是我 一生最爱的人
我真的舍不得 看着你 让你走

不要说爱我 不要说爱我
不要说你爱我 不要说

因为你是我 一生最爱的人

Watever

Elder brother is involve in putting together this year NDP, one of his sponsors gave him a MP4 which he doesn't want. So I sort of got my 1st birthday present early this year, an Suntech MP4. Have download songs in it, still trying to learn how to use it though. My very 1st MP4! Wow!

The bintan trip is finally booked, setting off on 8th at 8pm, coming back to Singapore on 10th.

Have decided not to sue him cos of some personal reasons and that he beg me. I lost alot of money and time. Now am just waiting for pay day cos I got no money to eat liao. Fuck!

16 more days

As I countdown to my birthday, I can't help but feel rather sad and lost. A year without boyfriend to celebrate for me and pamper me. Don't even know if will anyone remember the day. Although have make plans to sort of celebrate, my wish is so simple, A guy to love and pamper me. Is it so difficult? Be meeting "Sis" for dinner on my birthday itself, thus be skipping wushu training. Then going Bintan, leaving on the 8th, coming back on the 10th. Going with Samuel, Theresa and her 2 other friends. Be doing alot of water sports and suntan-ing. Can't wait. Need to get away from Singapore for awhile to unwind, hoping that I will come back refresh and charged again.

What's my wish for this year birthday or what present I hope to get? Saving up money to fullfilled these wishes and presents.

1. A boyfriend to love and pamper me, someone whom I can marry.
2. Laptop so I can work properly at home, don't wana "fight" for PC at home
3. Thumbdrive
4. New digital camera
5. New mobile phone that I have been aiming for very long (since last year). Nokia 7373 with blue tooth in powder pink
6. Hi Fi set in my room
7. Go for a month holiday to Hong Kong, Taiwan, Korea, Japan
8. Proper training outfit (gym bag, sweat pants, top)
9. Proper sports shoe to wear for filming and training (no shoe laces please)
10. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

Settled

I have finally settled my personal issues. I am physically, emotionally, mentally tired out. After 2 weeks, the issue is settled. Beside suffering from afew "blue-black", my heart and brain is torn apart. I don't wish to bother those around me about it, that's why I have been rather quiet and "black" face for the past 2 weeks. Am sorry to those friends and those around me who has seen this mood in me. Nothing much... I just wish to end everything, end my life... but I know I will upset those around me. I am hanging on there. Not sure how long more I can hang on. Bless me my friends.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRKN7fuUONM

The song for my current mood.

Busy week

This week has been rather packed and fullfilled for me.
Mon: Getting ready for pilot studio filming
Tue: Reach office at 930am, bring props over to MCS studio. Rush filming like mad cos too many scenes. By the time I reach home it's almost 130am.
Wed: Reach office at 1pm, had scripts meeting for Canter's episodes from 130-930pm. Then went to have dinner with Bee, reach home around 11pm
Thur: Reach office at 1030am, rush through the production report and settle some stuffs from the pilot shoot (still have unfinished stuffs to do). Then amend one of the episode script. Scripts meeting for Glenn's episodes from 330-6pm. Ended early cos today then we continue the other 2 episodes. Too sian to go for my wushu class, so went hime directly. Haiz... missed 2 lessons liao, last week and this week. Yan Bing is going to kill me.
Reach office at 945am this morning, to continue the meeting at 10am. But Glenn is late again... Haiz... Make me wake up at 730am... so sleepy... I slept at 230am, sleepless night again... Guess I really have to depend on the Sleep Disorder Pills from Fancl again... Stop for a week now am back to sleepless...

Filming for studio went quite well... no hipcups and nothing happen except the usual over run. I just hate studio filming, wana do outdoor filming soon...

Party World

Went Jeremy's house for wrap party last night, he cooked dinner and after that we watched the rushes and photos for the short film. Not everyone turn up though, we are shortage of 2 person. The whole team make up of Jeremy, Wan Ping, Kai Li, Yizhuang, Victor, Gillian and me. Kai and Yizhuang never show up. So not really the whole team lor. After dinner and viewing, we went to Party World at Shenton Way for our ktv session.

MW celebrates the birthday there also. So while I am orginial in room 2 with the short film team, I rush over to room 64 for the birthday. The staffs at the reception must be wondering why I am running to and fro from both rooms the 1st half of the night. Went to room 64 1st time to say hello, then the 2nd time to cut cake then the last time to take group photos.

My team were laughing at me for being popular. Ha! I am not lor, just that so nice got party at the big room only lor and just nice that 2 events at the same time and same place. We sang until 330am, reach home at 4am.

Anyway, thanks to Jeremy for treating us to such great french dinner and ktv session. Thanks to everyone for doing such a great job during the short film.

Life goes on as normal

Had a rather boring weekdays in office with nothing much to do. Last night, went to buy some FANCL products for my parents and myself. Then had dinner with Sam in a restauramt that we will never go again. Bad services and bad food.

Later I be going for the short film wrap party, hoping that I will enjoy myself.

Next week will be the last week to pre-prod for the sitcom, pilot filming.
Mon: Imaging from 1-6pm
Tue & Wed: Double check on all props, rundown, sponsors etc
Thur: Imaging from 12-6pm
Fri: Imaging from 9am-12pm, rehearsal from 1pm onwards
Sat-Mon: Double double check and confirmation
Tue: Filming in studio 4

After that, got nothing to do again. Have lar actually, editing and meeting for my rest of the episodes.

True love are hard to get and find, treasure your partner. Waiting for someone whom I can say "I love you" to everyday. Someone whom I can hug.

The sms

Had a rather busy past few days. Mon went to MediaCorp at 11am, view footages with Director then imaging from 330pm-930pm. After that went to eat dinner with Sharon, Ellery and Sam.

Spent my Labour Day doing nothing, ended the day badly cos of my dad again. Haiz... He always has to spoilt my day.

Last night went to watch a play that Hansol is involve in, under Short & Sweet Singapore, his play is call "Jump". Never saw him perform before, not bad. Actually he look charming on stage. Hahaha...

"He" sms me last night again. I am still on the verge of recovering, why does he has to remind me of him? I just have to avoid seeing him and hearing from him for the time being, I guess I will be fine. I guess I can recover soon. I hope so. I think I need help in relationship. I think no one loves me. I think guys only see me as their "brother" or just someone to talk to.

Be going for my wushu training today as per schedule. Tomorrow 2nd round of auditions. Sat, "Singapore Gal Story" wrap party. Got 2 KTV sessions. Guess I be at the wrap party instead of MW birthday.

11 more days to filming.

Just stopping by

Can't sleep... Work tomorrow but not consider a busy day... as per normal... Selecting some footages for sitcom at 11am, then 3 imaging starting from 330pm onwards. At night, meeting Hansol so that he can pass me the tickets to his play on Wed. We are still short of 1 main supporting cast to form the whole family... Oh well... As per normal, network rejected ALL those that we auditions, so my poor casting director has to re-find again.

Diva gave me a bag when she went shopping last Thur. The bag is nice, very big that I can put alot of things inside.

I went for hair rebonding again and cut my hair shorter. Bought the shampoo, condition and treatment. Haiz... $340 gone within 6 hours. Too bad that I have super curly hair, so no choice that every 6 months I got to spent this amount of money to maintain my hair neatness.

Treated my family to lunch this Morning, went to the Hong Kong Cafe at Kovan. Order alot, total bill is $51 ++. Then went Body Shop to buy a perfume which I used up mine 1 year ago... Hahaha...

Yawn... Time to go to sleep... *Wish upon the stars that my Mr Right will appear soon*

What's wrong with me?

Feel like crying suddently. Why do I have such feelings? Maybe I have been listening to all those sad songs the whole day in office and got almost nothing to do. Too much free time to let my thoughts wander. Listening to LOVE'S INSTRUMENTAL COLLECTION HITS the whole day make me either feel like going ktv or cry.

Long to have the special someone to pamper me, loves me, cares for me, be there for me when I happy or sad.

Project is abit screw up for the time being, rehearsal date is so unfix... casts constraints as per normal... I am not complaining about work, nothing to complain about... Almost everything is going smoothly with small hipcups here and there.

如果有一天
云也飘了
花也榭了
但愿你我相约在天涯海角

我爱的他在哪？

Nice weekend

Had a great and rather wonderful weekend. After work on Friday, I went over to East Coast for the birthday chalet. At first I was rather anti-social, cos I really don't know the rest well. Then slowly the ice break a little. Everything was great but SOMEONE has to spoilt the mood by doing something stupid and selfish. THE PERSON is so childish and stupid that I am not going to talk to THE PERSON again.

At least I was anti-social at first but I don't spoilt everyone's mood. It's a birthday chalet, so everyone is there to have fun, that's all.

One thing I feel sad during the chalet is that everyone are couple there and I am the god damn single person there. Haiz...

What's new?

Nothing much to write about. Friday the 13th was rather unlucky day for me. Morning when walking to office, my heel strap broke, then i walked the remaining way to office barefooted. Sam was nice enough to go buy super glue and glue the strap back but in the end I still got to buy a pair of new shoe cos the strap is causing my feet to hurt.

The moment I got into office, I was rather pissed by someone. Oh well... the person isn't the worse I have encounter so far.

Then after work, went PS to but new shoe and had dinner with Sam. Afterwhich we went to drink. Had terrible cocktails but good Shisha. Then we went to join Ellery and Sharon for chat, until 430am then reach home.

Sat afternoon, woke up and had lunch with Hansol at a Japanese restaurant at East Coast. He is so nice, insisting in paying for the meal cos I intro him to the trailer shoot. I mean, he is not the only one I intro. Just nice I know there's audition so I just "throw" in afew names lor.

Today I woke up late, skip lunch and still have not eaten any food up till now. Not hungry and don't feel like eating. No mood to eat.

That's all for the updates. Nothing new happen in my life.

Trying to recover

Been uploading afew songs into my friendster, the songs say out my feelings. Sharon, thanks for sharing the songs with me. I like the last song the most as it best say out my inner feelings, Jolin Cai-你还爱我吗. A question that I really want to ask him but don't have the courage to.

Wondering what is he doing now. How is his flu. Does he still have sleeping problem every night? Is his business doing great. How is the meeting when he goes to his company in KL.

What I really want to ask is "Have you ever love me? Are you thinking of me?"
Questions that I know he will not answers.

When will I ever recover from this illness this time?

Thanks!

Been very upset and cried alot for the past few days. Am very gladful that I have a group of friends who stand by me and consoles me.

1. Thanks Sam for listening to my nonsense being there
2. Thanks Sharon for making a point to meet me yesterday and staying with me. Thanks for your hugs and shoulder when I out burst to you, crying like a mad woman the moment I saw you.
3. Thanks Ellery, although you never say much but just making yourself free out of your busy schedules.
4. Thanks Hansol for calling me the moment you read my last blog entry.

Thanks to all my friends who believes in me and willingly to let me vent my sadness to him. I will try to get over and overcome this down period. I will concentrate on my career and 武术.

I am still being hopeful in relationship and wants to fall in love soon. So do keep a look out for good man for me okay. :)

It's over

The short few weeks relationship is over. We are just not right for each other. He don't feel comfortabe having anyone and don't want to commit into any relationship right now. I don't hate him or blame him but I really feel hurt and sad that a relationship has to end. Though I still love him, I know that love can't be force. He prefer to remain as friends.

I am very sad. My heart has died once again. Why am I living on this earth for? No one loves me. My requirement isn't very difficult. Just someone to pamper and loves me. Am I asking for too much? After being through the past relationships, I have begin to take things easy and not be demanding. Is this a punishment for me? God! Are you trying to test me or just want to let me live the rest of my life alone? I really hate myself!

CHERLYN TAN I HATE YOU!

Training

Went for my 武术 training last night, did alot and really re-fresh my 武功底. Leg is aching even until now but have to bear with it cos tomorrow got another round of training. Now my training will be every Tuesday and Thursday, 7-930pm. As long as I am done re-freshing, then I will be personally trained under 彦炳 to learn stunt moves for 拍戏. I have to focus, concentrate and buck up cos i wana to do stunts again soon.

Sharon tells me not to do stunts again but stunts is inside my blood and I love the feelings. Guess nothing and nobody can make me change my mind for the time being.

Later going Bugis to see 彦炳 and his guys do a set up for an event performance tomorrow night. Too bad I can't watch the event tomorrow cos I got training. Training more important cos I wana learn fast and quick. Afterwhich, will be meeting with "Sis" for dinner. Long time never see her liao, lots of stuffs to check up on.

Can't wait to off work.

Dear... Love you and miss you

Spent too much

Oh no! I spent too much money last night and since I got my pay. Got to cut down on my spending liao. Went Fancl twice, first time spent $40++, last night spent $140++. Oh no! Must not go Fancl and must not any how spend money liao.

Going for my 武术 training later after work, training under 彦炳 and Ms Diva going to join me also. I very long time never 松骨, hoping that I can still catch up.

After training, might have feature meeting. Not confirm yet, waiting for Director to call me.

Ellery confirm with him about his feature filming in Aug, doing conti since I am still working when they need the 1st AD to start in June for pre-prod. Oh well... too bad... He says that doing conti also rather stressful and tiring. I never really fully do conti before, I mean previously as AD, conti is part of the responsible and job. At least, my resume got another new position -- Conti Person for Feature Film.

Dear dear.... I miss you... Love you...

Taking things easy

Miss seeing him... hugging him... just being with him... He is so busy with his business and friends... Is he serious about this relationship? I don't wana force him or think so much about it already... just let nature take it's course. If this relationship is meant to last, it will. For me, I will just wait for him in patience.

The project got delay, as per normal. Just becourse network wana use their dream male lead who isn't free for the actually filming schedules. Can't they just be more flexible? Their mind just work in a square. Irrating! Then my the other project in June got problem liao. Call the boss and told her about my side problem. Worse come to worse, I might not be able to do the other company June project -- a drama. Haiz. I love working in that company and boss.

Saw Yan Bing on Thur, decides and agree to go to his wu shu guan for training again. He is looking for female stunt and I like stunts, so there goes...

Last night, went ktv with Sam. KGarden at Serangoon Garden sucks UNLESS you likes to sing English songs, they have more orginial mtv for English songs. The song systems sucks, room too small BUT the aircon isn't centralise (good for people like me who can't stand the cold).

Hansol got a role in a play. Congrats to him!

I have been using the Fancl - washing powder, lotion and miky lotion since Friday night. So surprising that I actually spend the time and bother to do all these. Hahahaha.... Well, if my face turns up with improvment, then maybe I will start to invest in Fancl's products. Another one of Sharon the diva recommendations that I will spend money in again. Hahahaha....

Dear, I really miss you alot.

Unwell

Have been sick since last week, first I "lao sai", then I vomit, follow by sore throat, flu, aching body, gastric. Maybe I don't have enough rest, that's why body and health drop.

Have not meet dear for afew days already, wonder how is he now. Have a mutal understanding that I will give him time and patience for him to get into the relationship. So will not force him to meet him or do anything for me. Wonder what type of relationship I am having.

Wana learn diving. Under water world is so nice and peaceful.

Filming got delay, as usual for any productions.

Seems like all 3 Directors for the sitcom are rather nice and friendly.