Am I in love?

Recently the love bug is within me again. Not sure how he feels about me, never ask. Maybe he sees me just as a normal friend or colleague. Just find myself always going to his office and talk to him. seeing him makes my problems and troubles go away. Talking to him is relaxing and comforting.

Today, was in a super emotion moods and had terrible mood swings. Went to his office and cried. Although he is busy with works and never really did much but I feel rather console by just seeing him and with him been there.

Right now, I don't want to think too much. I hope to focus in the projects I am in and pray that everything went on well. Got problems with writers, network and sponsor. I can't really function as PM. The duties are too heavy and burden is too much. I can control burgets but controlling the whole team is another issues.

Got problems with my health these days. Went to see doctor on Wed midnight, doctor says I have serious gastric problem and infection which might lead to 盲肠炎. If really 盲肠炎, then I will have to go for operation. Shit! I got to nurse back my health. Colleagues have really been concerning me. Getting me to eat on time and making sure that I got enough rest. Should be on 2 days mc for Thur and today, but there are just too many things to do that I can't afford the rest. Parents are angry that I am on mc but still go to work. “你又不是赚很多，做到半条命。” The medicial bill is so expensive! The injection and medicines cost $60! Haiz...

Just hoping to go for a break soon, before I really break down and die.