Holiday anyone?

Life has been too boring for me... too boring... I am not the sort to call and ask friends to go out, so wait for friends to ask me out lor... which is just plain waiting.... after works and weekends are terrible and hard to past cos I got nothing to do.... always have to think of things to do to kill time just makes me miserable...

Have been thinking... current projects will end in mid Dec... will be helping Jeremy with his short film over 1 of the weekend in Dec before X'mas... then after that company should be going on a break... Thought of taking leave to go holiday... I don't mind going anywhere but don't wish to go alone... which I guess I will end up going holiday cos... guess I don't have to say much anyone can guess.... no boyfriend, friends busy... haiz....

Need to go back to the salon and redo my rebonding (free as agreed), cos after washing my hair, it starts to curl again. Normally, small rather invisible curls are okay for me (which always happen cos my hairs are very curly), but this time, the curls are alot and I wana get my money worth.

Ellery is so nice. I ask him to write me a testimonial and he really did (so fast) and mail it to my home. He is so nice to put in so much good words for me in the testimonial. Hahahahaha... makes me blushed.

I am bored! Very bored! Need friends! Friends, where are you? I am so free but no one ask me out. Why?

Another week has past

Second week in the company and left has been the same. Boring, tiring, depressions. 2nd AD has finally come in and after so many projects, so long, another guy as 2nd AD. Hoping that he doesn't turn up like CW.

He came online, then know that his grandfather pass away. Although I seldom talk to him whenever I went over to his house, but still got sort of communicate with him. I don't think I wana go to the funeral course I don't wana feel funny not knowing what to talk to him about and how to behave especially if his girlfriend is around.

Making myself busy nowadays, beside doing stuffs at own work, helping Jeremy with his project, helping Hansel in his portfolio. Just making myself busy untill I don't have the time to think of anything else. Is this the life I wan to lead? Sad? Lonely? Miserable? What's the type of life I wan? I don't know anymore... I am unsure... I am confuse... I am lost...

Motivations

Find out yesterday that the company is very new and green in terms of drama experiences. Explain to them that we need to get people to fill up some positions that's needed in the project so as to let the project runs smoothly. I sort of gain respect in here cos they see me as a very experience AD in the drama field. Now I need to get Art Director cum Props Person, Locations Researcher and Sponsorship Manager cum Conti on set. These have to be the people that I can trust and hopefully work with.
When I was interviewed, they told me that I be the 2nd AD for the 1st round, then yesterday they told me that I be the 1st AD instead and the orginial 1st AD will be my 2nd AD. What a change. So I guess they must have abit of trust and respect in me to let me handle lor.
I have not do any auditions yet, need to show Eric the photos then let him choose lor. I got kiv Fish. Hoping to be able to find a role for Hansol and Victor. Hansol asks me to be his agent in Spore, then I can have a cut out of his payment. Will be meeting him up next weekend to discuss about it, did asks him to help in Jeremy's short film. Need him to help us gain resources and permits in Malaysia. Victor takes part in Mr World Singapore 2006 and get into the top 12, last night got a competition, he won the Mr Personality award. So happy for him.
Realise that I am getting more into short films for the past few months. Went for screenings, met up with film makers etc. It's good in a sense cos then I can explore out of the tiny box of dramas. Hope to make my own film someday.

Start anew

Finally wrap the short film, being filming like madness for 4 days. 2nd project with Ellery and the same madness and rushing of locations happens. Although there are some hipcups, everything and everyone was wonderful. The crew are great! Although they are rather new, they are always willing to learn and teach what they know. They never complain about over running, delay meals time, having to work early the next day, tiredness... They are excellent. The production team rocks too! Need to credit them in my blog.
Crew: Looi Wan Ping (DOP), Glenn, Ismail (Soundmen), Yew Yee, Linus (Soundmen Assistants), Wei Ming (CA), Alex John Tan (Gaffer)
Production Team: Ellery (Director), Lynn, Jeremy (Producers), Kai Li (Art Director), Amos (Production Assistant)
As for me, I am the Assistant Director cum crew. Hahahahaha.....
Hope to work in another short film again with such great and cool team members.

New beginnings

Just start my full time job after being freelance since I left MW. Abit scary though, the whole company only 1 full time staff and that's me, alone with 2 bosses. Aiyo... no collegues, no people to gossipe with, no one to eat lunch with... This is sad... just wondering if I can "tahan" for 2 months or not.

Going to start shoot tommorrow for Ellery's short film, abit tight schedules but hopefully everything will run smoothly and not much hipcups. Everyone did a great job so far. Ellery, Jeremy, Lyn, Kai Li, Rey. All come together just to make this short film for free. Oh yeah! Thanks to Zachary for agreeing to act for me in 1 scene for free and I just ask him last night so more.

Had this feeling so this person, but not sure how he thinks of me. Well, leave it to fate.

All the best to the short film, my new company and my life.

Life vs Work

Have been rather busy these few days. Going to start filming this coming Friday and the main cast isn't confirm yet. My home pc is down and I got no money to send for reply or buy a new one. Can't do my schedules and send email out. Feel so helpless and useless.
Filmat36 call me up and we agree to try out for 2 months before going full time and I start work tomorrow. Which means I have to settle the short film schedules by today, which I am at my auntie's house doing it. To make my mood worse, she has no excel in her pc which I have to download it and it's going to take hours. Fuck lar! My life and work isn't going anywhere!
Have been so lonely at nights, getting sleepless nights....
My life and work sucks! No stable career, No stable income, No love life, No friends to go out with.
Feel like dying sometimes...