My Countdown to 2010

Happy New Year! Happy 2010!

Actually on the eve itself, I intend to spent in alone with family over afew bottles of red wine. Was having my dinner, when Simon call me and asked me down to his pub, MC. Really don't want to cos I am super broke with $0 in my wallet. He and Eve was insisted and said they will pay for me fom taxi fare to beer. Then I don't know how to reject them, and also, I am so lonely and emo, I really wanted company. Thus, in the end, I went down.

Had fun, worn the wardrobe I bought from Bangkok and Simon and Eve said I look different and nice. Full of confident. I told them about the company and they fully support me and are so happy for me.

Although I never see the fire works, but hearing them makes me so happy. Upon hearing the fire works, I know that my 2010 will not turn up too bad. Even if relationship don't work out, I am sure that my career will. I got to believe in that.

Some photos from MC to share.

Something happen that I never expected ended up the whole event. Will not talk much here. Think we will just remains as friends instead of couple. I am not expecting much.

Hope that my 2010 will be a bang.

冲刺

和Donovan谈了未来的计划和想法，我们有很多东西要做。为了2010年和未来，我们要冲！

我不能再 happy-go-lucky下去了。我要focus！

这是我的宝贝！我的命！我一定要成功！

My First Christmas Gifts

Am so happy now. Alot of times, little things that happen can make me very happy. Stuffs that I have done, achivements that I have done etc.

Okay, actually the main thing that make me so happy now is that, I receive my very first Christmas gifts this year. I never expect him to give me anything, since I known him for 4 years, this is his very first gift to me.

A Good Luck Thing from Japan, that's hanging above my bed on my ceiling light now

A Handphone Pouch that I am using now. Although a little too cute for me (which he thinks suit me alot), I love anything gifts from him.

The Artistes from AAM

AAM (Absolute Artistes Management) presents to you

VICTOR LIN WEIDE

DAVID DONOVAN LEE

贵人

因为我的电脑的不见，我找到/拥有了2位贵人。1个在金钱上帮了我，1个在语言上安慰了我的心。

No matter what, thanks guys! Both of you are really my life-savers. I really don't know how to pull through without both of you. Been your manager and knowing you guys as close friends 是我的荣幸.

If without fails and any hipcups, I will get my new laptop tomrrow by 8pm. Will be able to restore/retrive all my datas by Wednesday. Then I can start working on full force again.

I make promises/goals to myself and to both of them, to do by next year.

• More projects and jobs for V
• If I don't get the oversea attachment (really knock wood), I will focus on AAM and A@W and make them known and great and a success
• At least do 2 features, that pay okay, if I don't get oversea attachment (knock wood hard hard again)
• Set up the official website for AAM and A@W
• Sign more Artistes, whom I really wana groom

Meanwhile, I must get A going again. Must make him get back on his feet again.

My AAM, I have V, D and A to take care, groom and focus on. I must make it. I must be able to repay all my debts soon. I must work hard.

Bangkok memory

Bangkok used to be 1 of my favourite country to go to... nowm I don't think I wana return back there anymore.

The very moment I touch down at BKK airport, I lost my laptop! I was carrying it all the way from Spore to BKK airport. Then while waiting for my dad to smoke finish at the taxi stand, I put laptop on the seat and just left it there when I got onto the taxi.

By the the I realise it and return back to airport, it's gone. The CCTV can't check on anything and no one return to the lost & found counter. I cried on the spot. Break down really hard. Called him and he console me. Glad to hear his voice at that moment. The police at the airport and the hotel staffs are all very nice and help me to find though it's gone forever.

It's the 2nd day that it's gone and I am still very sore and irrated by the fact that it's gone due to my stupidity. I just hate myself for losing it.

Now, I got to find ways and means to buy a new laptop and retrive all the data and information back. The progress will kill me for sure. I almost kill myself on the spot when I know that I forgot to take my laptop. I really almost wana kill myself if not for his voice and him.

Now, I got works and blogs and stuffs that I can't do due to my stupidity and blur-ness.

All my artistes showreels and everything all gone and I got to re-do again.

I just hope that my luck will change for the better, with new laptop and attactment to China/HK. I really hope and wish for it to happen to me.

Injured but half happy half unhappy

I finally see the sinseh this afternoon about my shoulder and right arm. Sinseh says I have muscle vein pull (something along that line) and 1 of the bone on the top right arm slightly came off. Had 推拿 and 针灸 on top of the medicine to apply, cause me $50. So heart pain. Arm is still painful, can't really bend much and have difficulties going to the bathroom. Simple thing like taking pants off is painful for me now. Shoulder is still aching.

Spend the night with the birthday man yesterday. We were at ECP MacCafe from 8pm-12am, which the wireless internet is so damn slow, we decide to give out. Went to his office instead to work, which we work on the stuffs till like 530am, afterwhich we went to eat breakfast. Got home and sleep at 630am. Knowing him for so long, this is the 1st time I actually get to be with him on his actual birthday day. Although we never celebrate nor eat anything fancy, but I am just happy to be able to be with him.

He hasn't been on good mood these days due to soe problems, but I am just lending him my listening ears.

Andrew has backache these days, hope to meet up witth him real soon lor.
Victor has been busy with both work and Bubble Boyz till end of Dec.
I will be busy with production stuffs, getting new projects for talents, setting up some stuffs with friend, and maybe can travel out to work next year. Just hoping thet everything will turn up fine and well for me. Aren't getting young anymore. Health is going downhill. Hope to achieve something in my career before my engine break down.

Check out the latest amendment I did for Don's blog: http://ddonovanlee.blogspot.com/
We did another blog last night also, which will be announce when it's ready.

Thanks for being there

Thank you for being there for me, my friends. Be it we are still in contact now or not, everyone is still in my heart.

Love you, my dear friends.


No matter what happens, I will always remember the times we smile, laugh, cry, argue together.

No matter where you are right now, I wish you all the best and blessing from the bottom of my heart.

                                                             Sweet Mermories

Wondering and pissed

Isn't doing a great job for the locations researching job, LR just isn't in my strenght and I just hate it. Screw up quite abit that Manager has to pick up the shits for me. After this project, I swear I will never ever do any LR position again.

Going back to office to work again tomorrow, after not going back for 4 days. Damn!

13 more days and I be in Bangkok, staying in a wonderful hotel. Check up the website Pathumwan Princess Hotel, seems nice and great lor.

Been hearing alot of stuffs from friends about a couple which I am rather disppointed lar. Knowing them for years, thus hearing such stuffs about them, just make me wonder about the layer of masks they put on before meeting friends. This is so sad.

Getting a cheque tomorrow, yahoo! Although the pay is peanuts, but still can hang on for awhile before my next cheque lor. Wondering if I can get advance payment for the LR job before I go Bangkok or not.

Overlapping (Another boring post)

Have been busy and pack in my daily schedule since last week, and I am very happy about it.

Updates
30th Oct: (330-730pm)MindChamps shoot for Sylvester. Cash payment, which I ma so happy about

5th Nov: (2pm-4am)Help Don to set up the website layout

6th Nov: (1-6pm)Locations sourcing for Bridal boutiques, which I have 8 boutiques agreed to sponsors. Yahoo! Not bad consider I "comb" Tanjong Pagar and Delfi Orchard.
              (6-730pm)Sort out all the locations photos and notes for the day and while waiting for Vic
              (730pm-11pm)Meet Vic and talk cock. My usual life with Vic. Hahaha

7t8th Nov: (1030am-6pm)Locations sourcing all over Singapore, with Uncle Han driving me around. Went to alot of old folks home, hospitals. Got relatively good response though, not bad.
                 (7pm-430am)Doing up the blog for Don, uploading reels and all. That's the start of my zombie moments liao. Check up the blog http://ddonovanlee.blogspot.com/, though it's not announce to the public yet, but I just like what I did so far. It's not the best yet which I will improve on it once I got my locations sourcing all done. One of the photo that I like of Don is

               (530am-730pm)On-set for the German shoot as PA. After the day works, I find that I am actually too old to be PA already. All the moving, carrying, setting up, running around etc, are to taxing and tiring for me. I am covered with bruises just by 1 set up. Damn! On top of it, I am so zombie from not sleeping. When I finally got home and sleep, I realise that I had survived 42 hours of non-stop working. Wow! The German shoot set up is so grand and big. This is what a shoot should be lor, at least for feature film.

9th Nov: Locations sourcing again. Came face to face with a "body" waiting to get her makeup done. It's a experience that I will never wana go through again lor. Saw a house that's so grand that me and Manager fell in love with it at first sight.

10th Nov: (1030am-6pm)Working in 10Q, sending zillions of emails to seek permission in filming.

                (630pm-7pm)Interview for an event job. A waste of my time. Damn!

11th Nov: (1030am-530pm)Working in 10Q office again

                (630-7pm)Interview for a foreign job. Can sense that the interviewer likes me and my works. I have a strong feeling that I will get the job.

                (730pm-3am)Meet Benji for dinner at PS then head down to Roomful to drink. So happy that he be in HK from 12th-17th Nov. He has work hard for the 2 projects as PA, he deserved a break.

That's all I can update for now. Am so happy that I can juggle both 10Q and Absolute Artistes schedules and jobs fairly well and okay.

I sign off here. Congrats to you if you managed to read through all the way here for this post. My posts are always boring.

What's up

Finish filming for The Gang, feature film prelude on 22nd Oct. Been slacking at home during nothing since then. Orginally, should have afew projects to do as PA but things always fall apart for me. No TVC, no German tele-movie, no Jack Neo feature film. Just did a one day off thing camera work for Sylvester, received cash and that's it. Coming Thursday should have one last round at the same venue I guess.

Been sleeping at wee hours in the Morning, watching Tudou and YouTube. Keep refreshing my Facebook account for zillon times every waking hours. Life sucks man.

I just hate it when there's no projects and slacking at home makes my mind wanders.

Had dinner at Yanbin's restaurant last week, afterwhich, went Zouk with the rest. The last time I went Zouk was after Siva's wedding dinner. I never like Zouk.

Andrew is well again (I hope). Have not have the chance to meet him yet which I am still waiting for him to call me out. Miss him alot and I mean ALOT.

Finally secure a project for Victor, finally starts Absolute Artistes Management. I just got to settle my website, namecards and the rests.

Been applying to alot of jobs these few weeks in alot of fields. Hoping to receive good reply. Maybe I will end my freelance career and start another field. Maybe it's time for me to go fulltime in another field. Bread and butter = money, is very important at this point and state.

Whatever

Been busy with current project, which it's just a short film but I feel like I am doing a major drama or rather feature film already.

Am still working in Starbucks at Raffles at this hour with Producer and PM. Damn.

Face alot of new set backs and new cases. Backstabber, gossipers, unmotivated people, unwilling to work more than given people. Gosh! Whatever man!

I am known as the bitches in the group liao, and I am proud to be know as a bitch.

No offences to anyone and who-so-ever. I am just a bitch, venting my anger in the middle of the night or rather early in the morning.

Sorry should there be anyone reading this blog. I don't mean any harm or don't mean to bite. I am just me, just been me.

好心痛

我今天哭了很多次，哭到我很累。喝了约本我要戒掉的酒。我的心好痛好痛。痛到我无法不去想他。萧十一郎，你一定要好起来！

Been busy with The Gang recently, rushing out preprod, which we are filming on 4th, 12-16th Oct. Rather panic and slight stress over alot of unsettle stuffs. Lucky, I have a team of rather great PAs and PM to support me.

Unsure if he can do the project or not, cos I have not heard any reply from him yet. I really hope everything will turn up well and fine for him.

Next week will be a crazy week for me, I got to settle whatever I can settle for 4th shoot by 30th Sept. I can't do anything on 1st and 2nd cos I have to handle Sharon's gig, with the rehearsal and actual day.

The Gang will wrap rather fast, which I am panic also. Cos so far no company or rather no one book me for any other projects yet. This is sad and depressing. It's not a good sign for me.

Got to start hunting for projects soon liao. I miss the days I am super packed and busy with projects overlapping or one after another.

心痛

昨晚我听到一个很心痛的消息。我哭了，我已经很久没哭过了。我的心真的很痛很痛。

希望他真的会没事，一切会顺利。

You will be fine, you will be alright. Nothing will happen to you. You will be fine.

I outburst my anger at him, I don't mean to but I just find that it's unfair. He is already having such hard life and this thing has to happen. Why?!

You will be fine.... you will be fine...

Refresh... Itchy

Went Tioman last Fri and return back on Mon. Am totally refresh and recharge, that I hope to stay in Tioman forever.

The moment I return back home, open my email and I see alot of stuffs to do. Damn! Back to work life again.

Both of my legs are so itchy now that if I continue to scratch, I believe my legs will bleed and become worse. I had been attacked by sand flies. Damn!

Just got home from ktv session with my parents and kid brother for the 1st time. It's fun and special. Something that I will always remember.

Changes

My life needs changes and a fresh start. Have been reading up and doing research lately. Been meeting and talking to friends about it. If it all goes well, I will be doing and preparing for it next week onwards.

Been meeting up with Andrew alot lately. He is such nice guy and friend. Glad that I find him back after all these years.

Be going to Tioman on Fri. Can't wait.

Happy Updates

Wow! My schedules has been packed since I last blog. Been very happy and fullfilling days and weeks and many more to come.

27th July: Meeting for project

28th-29th July: Finding people for auditions

30th July: Went airport to welcome Moo Moo back to mainland. At night, went drinking at friend's apartment and had so much fun.

31st July: More finding of people for auditions

Aug
1st: Auditions. After that went drinking with another group of friends again.

2nd: Auditions

Today, Morning had meeting for the project again. Then after that, went home to sleep for awhile before meeting "Farms Family" for my another round of drinking. Hahahaha...

Going to upload all those photos taken today before going to sleep. Gosh! Another round of drinking later at night. Hahahaha... I will die of excess alchole very soon.

缘分

一切随缘吧。

????

Should I or should I not say?

Should I go with my guts feelings before the chance is taken away again?

I am really unsure and clueless. The type of feelings is back again. The last time I did it, I fail badly.

?????