Been busy since the very moment I return to Singapore. Current project schedules keep changing everyday that it starts to get on my nerves.

Have wedding shoot next week also, right after my morning filming. Although its been very hectic and busy for me for the past few months or rather 2008, I am rather glad and I must say I am very lucky that I still have so many projects to do in this economy crises period.

My 2009 should be pack and hectic also, have projects line up which I hope that they will go on as plan.

I wish for a break and a holiday soon. Hoping to go back Tokyo, Hong Kong and Shanghai. Shanghai is the place I am aiming to go back to.

Came back to Singapore on 12th Nov at 1015pm, dad came to pick me up from the airport. Ended the 1 month of intense filming and flying of 5 countries. I learnt and experience alot from this project. Doing a travelogue has alot of things to do, to learn, to study and to understand.

Be starting my new project, a short term one on Mon. It's another new experience for me.

Hoping to do more new experience instead of the usual dramas and broadcast stuffs I always do.

Hoping for features to come in.

I am being emo again and depress again. Actually I have been feeing that way since the day I was in Ho Chin Minh City. Not sure when can I recover back, maybe I will stay this way for days or weeks or months... I am not sure and I don't know

Shanghai

It's my 3rd day in Shanghai, touch down on 06th at night. It's freezing cold here! Went to The Bund for filming just now, and I am so cold that I can't even talk clearly. It's 12 degree now, can you imagine how cold is it? Singapore the lowest it goes is only 25 degree. I am going to wear another jacket tomorrow and 2 pair of socks.

My ear are still very cold now. Should I wear my track pants inside my jean? Will decide before I sleep.

Hong Kong

Today is the 2nd day in Hong Kong and we have already change 2 hotels. Last night when we reach the orginial hotel that the fixer got for us, I am so uncomfortable about it. Have to walk into a alley and climb up steps to get to a non-aircon reception area. The the rooms walk way are link to resident homes which anyone can just climb over to our areas.

Now at another hotel, security is slightly better but the rooms are very small and the toilets are pityful. Not much walking non breathing space at all. We have to send the laundry ourselves and every morning I got to find ways to iron the host's clothes. Damn.

Whatever, I just hope to get to Shanghai quick and fast.

Other than the hotel, Hong Kong is bascially much better as compare to other countries I filmed in and that I felt more at home here. I roam around the streets alone in the afternoon and bought some clothes, CD and DVD.

Coming here reminds me of him. That year when we came here.

Last day at Ho Chin Minh City

Am so happy! It's my last day at Ho Chin Minh City and I be out of this terrible country with the terrible traffic. I can't get used to the food, the traffic, the people and the the whole place. It's just not my style.

Will be in Hong Kong tomorrow and I love Hong Kong. Been there once and finally I am back there again. A place where I understand what's everyone talking about and understand their culture. Most importantly, I can eat their food. Alot of my favourite food there. Must have their soup. I miss soup alot.

13 more days and I be back in Singapore. Starts of new projects plus the re-shoot of 1 segment of the Singapore travelogue episode.

Did anyone miss me?

Tokyo

4th day in Tokyo already and leaving in 3 days time to Ho Chin Minh. Love Tokyo, very beautiful and quiet. Streets are very clean and neat, alot of beautiful and handsome people on the streets. Temperature for the past few days are between 19-23 degree, to Tokyo people it's cooling and just nice. To me, it's rather cold. I am already almost freezing every day here, not sure if I can stand the coldness in Shanghai in Nov. Think I will ask WL to prepare some gloves for me, will definetly love to meet him there.

Staying in Kurumi Mansion is okay, the room is rather small on top of the fact that I am sharing with 2 other guys.

I really need a long break when I return back to Singapore. Have not been sleeping enough and well since I left Singapore.

Wondering if anyone miss me back in Singapore...

Tokyo

Today is the last day I will be in Bangkok, be going to Tokyo next. 1130am taking the plane but can only reach at 930pm cause we will have to via Hong Kong first.

Not sure how cold Tokyo will be cause I don't have much clothings with me. Have to carry alot of work stuffs so limit my own personal stuffs.

It's already so cold in the hotel room, I think I will die in Tokyo. I see if I can survive in Tokyo or not then I know if I can make it in Shanghai.

Will update my blog again soon.

Today is the 3rd day of filming in Bangkok, and this is what's been happening to me so far.

14th: Reach company at 930am, leave at 11am. Reach Bangkok at 330pm. Reach hotel at 430pm. Leave for dinner at 530pm. Production meeting with Bangkok fixers at 730pm which the meeting ends at 1230am. Reach back hotel and by the time I slept is almost 2am.

15th: Call time at 6am, which I woke at 5am. Filming around Bangkok which the temperature is terrible and horrible. The traffic is scary and vehicles are going in opposite directions. Wrap at 11pm. By the time I slept after settling emails and claims, it's 1am.

16th: Woke at 5am for 6am call time again. Filming halfway, we got to stop cause the Thai princess come out of the palace. Filming wraps at almost 11pm again. Slept at almost 1am again.

17th: Woke 5am, set off 6am AGAIN. So tiring. Filming at a cafe this afternoon and happen to witness a peace protest which makes up of 1000 people. Lucky nothing happen. Wrap early today at 830pm, but don't know what time I get to sleep tonight. Lucky, call time for tomorrow is 7am instead, 1 hour later than the 3 days.

My experience so far in Bangkok is that there are some rules and tradition that I find it un-usual and I don't think I can mentally handle them. Listening to the Thai language is something that I am still getting used to it. No offence to anyone from Thai but I don't think I will be used to the life here.

1 more day and I will be in Tokyo.

Flying off

I be flying off and away from Singapore for 1 month in another 24 hours. Am starting to feel not so panic but still very stress and pressure that something might happen or works get screw up. As my mood and as I am letting myself feel more relax, an idoit or rather a fucking asshole who has no fucking manners has to make my blood pressure boil to the max.

As I have no luggage, mum pass me one that she took from the store room. Things put in the store room means its for the family right. I came out from the toilet and there he was yelling and barking like a mad dog, saying that why I never ask before I took or use. Fuck lar! If its so personal and out of bounds for anyone to use including your own family, then put everything in your own room! Don't leave it in the store room!

Anyway, I have never see or view her as part of my family. Never once, since the first day she step into the family.

Why do an asshole has to ruin my last night before I fly off? I don't own you anything! If you fucking hate or don't want to see me so much, say so! I am very glad to move out.

有些人读太多书到没教养和没文化。在这世界上是没有谁欠谁。醒醒吧王八蛋！

3 days to go

3 more days and I be flying to 5 countries for filming. It's getting more scary than excited. I am so unsure about alot of stuffs. I got more files and documents to pack than personal wardrobes and stuffs. I don't know how to pack. I don't know what will happen overseas. I am scare that I fall sick. I am scare of all the riots and Bangkok and Ho Chin Minh City.

I need alot of encouragement and supports. I am breaking apart very soon.

10 days to go

10 more days and I be flying off for 1 month. Things aren't looking any good and tasks have been snowball. All due to a reason that I don't wana mention here cause it will make my blood pressure to raise.

Have been meeting up with friends for dinner before I leave also. Filming in overseas can be very fast, and before I know it, I am back into Singapore. Will be looking for another project when I am back. So friends... I am available for new project in late Nov onwards.

18 more days

Counting down to the day I fly. I am only left with applying for the Visas and booking of lodgings. Bought the necessay stuffs including winter jacket and 2 track shoes, only left with seeing the doctor for injection.

I believe there are stuffs that I have not buy yet and I can't think of right now. Anyway, I will think and recall soon before I leave.

24 more days to go

Am so scared suddently and it's been 8 years since I last felf this way for a project. Still have alot of stuffs to settle before we can fly off to shoot.

This is scary man. I am afraid... for the first time after so many years... since MCS days... I think I am dying off already

Finally

I finally receive my pay from last project in full. Once the cheque is in my account, I got to clear all debts, bills and allowances to family before I decide what to get for my travelling with the remaining. Got to put aside a sum to use when overseas and also when I return back.

I can finally see lights in my wallet. Can concentrate in my works and of cos, looking for bf again. Hahahaha....

Help

I need help in handling Visa applications. I don't know how to apply for Visa and to make matter worse, I got a United Kingdom of Great Britain & Northern Ireland passport holder in my team. Why can't everyone be holding Singapore passport to make my job less troublesome?! Ahhhhh...... Anyone knows how to apply for Visa and the proceeder to it? I need help. I need advise.

35 more days

I just finish filming the Singapore episode for the travelogue, although it's very tiring and VERY short of manpower, it's been a great and new experience for me. As the AD, I help the crew also. I only have 2 men crew so everyone has to help one another. I carried alot of bags and equipments over my shoulder for 4 days, making my shoulders to ache so much. Although tiring, I went to Singapore Flyer, National Muesum of Singapore, River Cruise, Sri Mariamman Temple and New Majastic Hotel for the first time. Flyer, Cruise are nothing and rather boring after 10 mins. I don't mind going back to Muesum the second time and I know the place rather well already. It's like a maze inside. Temple is as usual temple, but I just can't stand the smell. I will love to stay in New Majastic Hotel one of these day, the hotel is very retro and I love the settings and furnitures.

I have 35 more days before I fly off to the other 5 countries for the travelogue. Bangkok, Ho Chi Minh City, Hong Kong, Shanghai and Tokyo... Here I come... Before that, I got to settle alot of stuffs and things... I will and need to chase back my payment from Big XXX next week, so that I can pay and buy whatever I need for the trip.

Anyway, did my team manage to "fight" for an additional grip to follow us for overseas filming? I hope we do, if not... haiz... how to survive for 5 countries...

New tasks

The current project I am doing is giving me cold sweats. Alot of new things that I never handed before like the Embassies, Visas, Fixers for overseas, Lodgings and transportations for overseas etc. Lucky, Vanessa helps me in some of it although I can still say I am doing it all alone.

This morning had locations recee with DOP and Director starting from 830am, by the time I reach home it's 5pm. Had a quick shower and redo my makeup and tried on afew clothes, before going to Eric Khoo's feature "My Magic". It's the first time I actually like Eric Khoo's movie after so many years. The story rather good and can relate to it. The casts are great, especially the one acting as the son.

Went to watch with Leslie and to my surprise, he acted inside also! As the magician's assistant and he had quite a number of appearances. So cute! So funny!

Watched "Kallang Roar" too. I don't really like the story but it's not bad for a new Director. However, I was rather disturb by the multi top shot and extreme close up and the habits of cutting off talents' forehead in single shots. I was amazed by the CSI--green screens effects they did and how it turn up. I mean, on the actual shoot, there was only 300 extras but the final product turns up, it's like they got 20,000 extras. That's something I must learn.

I just finish amending the callsheets for Sep 01-04 filming (again... haiz...). Done emailing those I got to for the shoot. Write out a lists of things I got to do for the shoot. Now, I am taking time out to update and vent abit of my thoughts in the blog. It's 310am now, got to wake up early tomorrow. Have to look for location and buy props, then come back and settle the rest of the stuffs.

I want to get my pay soon! Damn it! I really hate companies that delay pay, but it seems like a norm and common practise in Singapore to delay payment. That's not a good practise and it sucks! Those companies that delay payment, have they ever spare a thought for those freelancers who live on project basics? Freelancers already don't have CPF, and they still have to wait forever to get their payment?! When all companies start doing that, then everytime we work using our own savings.

I need the money to:
-settle debts
-buy clothes for overseas shoot
-pay parents allowance
-get new laptop before current one dies on me without warning
-settle the health and wellness issues
-get portable USB modem or something like that, so that I can connect to internet even when I am overseas
-get a printer fast

Damn it! So many things I want to do and so many things to pay. I want my pay!

Had chalet since Friday and got home this Morning at almost 9am. Damn tired cause never slept at all for the past 2 nights and had been eating bbq food for 2 nights.

My travelogue has been confirm of the countries and travel date. Be flying off on 12th Oct and be covering these 6 countries: Singapore (Ep1 of cos), Vietnam, Bangkok, Hong Kong, Shanghai and Tokyo.

I start officially with the production house in this project tomorrow at 10am. Have to settle the lodging, air tickets, sponsors, permits etc. Alot of things to do and time is running out. Only left with 2 months and 2 days. Telecast date is in Dec, another super tight budget and tight deadline project, but at least I get to travel out.

Wish me luck everyone.

New Project

Okay, it's official. I be taking the travelogue project, hope that I make the right choice in giving up the reality project. Actually, I am hoping to do both but I am just afraid that my schedules will crash. I be talking to the reality project boss again and discuss futher but I am defintely not going to give up the travelogue project.

Went for the REM wrap party last Friday, was quite nice though I find it abit boring cause there isn't much interactions for everyone. It's like everyone has their own group to gather. Afew got high and drunk.

Anyway, back to the travelogue... I am rather excited and hope that I can perform my duties. This is the first time I be doing a travelogue, so I am hoping for assistants and help from friends and company people. I can only confirm which countries I be actually be going after the official production meeting, but I can be sure that I will be the only female in the whole team that be travelling. DOP, Soundman, Host, Director and me (Producer).

Alot of things got to be done out and approve. The visa, equipments, people, transports, stay etc. I will rest and be fully charged for the next few days before I go full force again.

I miss him... He will be going oversea for project soon, although it's only afew days. After he comes back, I might be busy with my travelogues...

Will updates on the countries and when I be setting off. Might be away for a month or so. I got to take my injection soon and eat more healthy before travel starts.

Decision making time again

It's time to crack my mind and make decision again. Been to afew production houses and went through their projects, there are 2 projects that interest me. However, both projects are going to take place at the same time.

Project A: as Producer, filming starts in either late Aug or early Sept. This project entitles me to travel out of S'pore and to HK, Shanghai, Malaysia, Thailand, Indonesia, Philippines, Indian, Japan etc to name afew. It's the traveling that interests me alot, but pay isn't that good.

Project B: as Project Manager, filming starts 16th Aug. It's all film in local but a reality show. Rather challenging to do but I don't really like the concept or rather the game that's to be play. Pay of course, isn't good also.

Haiz... Which project should I do? Or should I do both? But I am afraid that for the period I will not be in S'pore, there other project needs me, then how?

Going to R.E.M wrap party soon. I will think about it over the weekend and give them an answer on Mon.

Aiya, another production company I still have not go and discuss the project with them yet. However, that project doesn't interest me much, an info-tertainment in Mandarin. The only takes is that I always hope to work with the boss himself.

Thinking time again. Have been resting for 10 days already, it's time to start the ball rolling and get the energy level back again.