Blank mind

Don't know what's my mind thinking about and sort of when blank at the moment. Can't focus on my work, so got in here to blog instead. Filming when on okay so far, hipcups everyday but still manage to pass through. Crew, production team, casts and Directors are great.

First time working with Glenn and Canter (Directors), they are rather patient with me. Know new crew, Jason Yun (Soundman) and Wei Min (CA). Young chaps full of enengy.

Gurmit Singh, Sue Tan, David Aw, Ru-ping and Sharon Wong are excellence casts who don't have any "airs" and follow according to schedules without much complaint.

Kids drama FINALLY going somewhere. New AD reporting work on 01st Aug. Did I mention that the previous AD left the project SUPER UNPROFESSIONALLY? God! I came back from lunch one day, and she just packed her stuffs without saying a word. Haiz... some people can be so .... New changes to Kids drama, but still can hang on with Piao's help. Can't wait to get it start and I can leave the project fast. At least my crew is fix already.... Same crew as Solid Gold... Hahaha....

Don't know what else to blog... So post some photos instead ba...

Taken on my bday in Dream forest. Zhao Min wants to to draw 4D numbers, Piao took my photo withing me knowing.

My "dearest" friend whom used to ne so nice and caring towards me.

懊脑

7月15日
新期天
时间：6点30分
地点：工司

做人真辛苦，当拥有的时候却不珍惜而失去的时候却后悔。那一天如果我没一时冲动而跟他分手的话，或者我现在就不会那么孤单，也不会把工作来麻醉自己。

真的很想他。不只道现在的他是否比和我在一起的时侯更开心？我现在的心情，不爱歌手不过爱她的歌词。

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4CVnmz_OGs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eYzKnv7pyCI

我这几个月的心情和心声

習慣
歌手：楊丞琳 作曲：陳忠義填詞：陳忠義 編曲：林從胤

分手已經兩年半　我們再度向寂寞取暖 沒有牽掛和不安

＊失去彼此的陪伴　我們學著將回憶剪斷　拒絕想念的試探
　曾經以為總會找到　說服自己的答案　情緒卻在風浪平息後　被一通電話打翻＊

＃我已經漸漸習慣　忙碌把生活填滿　和自己分享晚餐　試著活得更理所當然　我已經漸漸習慣　對感情順其自然　只是我還不明白　失去你的天空　為何看來不那麼蔚藍＃

REPEAT＊＃

相愛到了解的默契　怎能說忘記就忘記 我想我已經習慣你

REPEAT＃

Terrible feeling

Same thing happen to me yet again, gastric flu is back. When I was bathing this Morning, vomited even when i had only mushroom soup and black coffee last night and nothing this Morning. The few seconds of my vomit was a horrible feeling. I felt my whole stomach cramp together and I can't stand up.

This is not good. It's not worth to die because of projects.

God!

I am still working in office. God! Been working since 10am and it's almost 1am now. Tomorrow still need to go MCS at 10am. I want to sleep! I want to rest!

Thanks Bee! For staying in office with me even till now. Love you babe!

Mad rush

Filming for sitcom is going to start soon, have 7 more days to prepare. Still have dozen and 1 unfinish stuffs. Ahhhhhh...... And the remainding 7 days are so super packed!

Tomorrow: Auditions for SG at 1030am and 2pm. VO recording for Mandy at 530pm. In between have to settle scripts for Mandy. I have not read any Mandy scripts yet. Shit!

Thur: 4pm onwards, Mandy meetings

Fri: Settle all things for SG

Sat: Check props in the Morning. Afternoon SG imaging

Sun: SG rehearsal

Next week, I only got 2 days left to settle ALL SG items to prevent any hipcups.

Then 18th onwards, hell of filming. My filming days are like film 1 day then off 2 days, then film 3 days off 1 day, then film 2 days then off 2 days, then film 1 day off 4 days, then film 5 days then off 1 day, then film 1 day again. Total got 13 filming days.

The other round will be like film 3 days off 7 days, then film 1 day off 1 day, then film 4 days off 5 days, the film 1 day off 1 day, then film 3 days. Total got 12 days. But main thing is, in between got more breaks than mine, so that's make me has no time to do any last minute changes or watever.

Then Mandy filming starts from 18th Aug onwards. Lalalala.... I be taking a break or rather 1 month holiday ( I hope ) after SG & Mandy wraps. Nov still got short film to do. 天啊！ 我又当烂好人了！Cecilia, Bee, Zhao Min keep telling me to relax and warn me 有钱没命花. I know... I know...

Am aiming to finish current on hand projects, and then after that focus in finding a boyfriend.

Bless me!

Heart is bleeding

Have been making myself busy with works ( 2 projects on hand) and reading on novels. However, the more I make myself busy, the more my heart ache. I miss him... Out of all the ex-boyfriends I had... I miss him the most.

I cried afew nights ago... I went back to the places that we went before... I even went his house nearby... Don't know why I did that, maybe I am hoping that I will get to see him? But I will kill myself if I saw him with his current girlfriend. I don't know what I am doing. Am very tired. Waiting for the next special someone to touch my heart and sweep me off my feet.

I miss you... Not sure if you will be able to read this blog or not... but I just want to say out my thoughts... The real feelings and words from my heart... I really miss you... Tok...

Alone in office

It's Sunday and I am back in office working. Need to finish up the works that I can ASAP before filming starts for Sitcom. Just finish doing the timeline and schedules for Kids Drama.

Sort out the names to be summit for going to MCS. Print out scripts for Coeway. Call Artists and remind them that I did book them for rehearsals and photo shoots. Still have alot of stuffs to do. Have not eaten anything yet. So busy that I am not even hungry.

Just wana come in here before I resume works again.

No time out

Yesterday will be sort of the end of my relax periods. Reach office at 1030am, trying to finish my Sitcom stuffs before I be packed for the Afternoon. Had lunch at 1230pm, then 1pm had meeting with Art Director for the Sitcom. Afterwhich, another meeting at 3pm. This time it's for the Kids Drama. The meeting ended at almost 6pm. Sent afew important emails out before rushing off to meet Angeline at 7pm.

Had arrange with her to watch Spider Lillies. Rainie Yang's acting has improve, it's not her usual Idol Dramas that she normally do. The movie is great, it's the type of movie that I will direct and of my style.

Reach home at almost 1230am. Bath, read novel, relax for awhile. After reading Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist, I bought Eleven Minutes and By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept. Finished reading By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept last night, will start Eleven Minutes soon. I think I will start to buy Paulo Coelho's whole collection, don't know why but like the way he wrote and his style. His other novels are The Pilgrimage, The Valkyries, The Fifth Mountain, Veronika Decides To Die, Warrior Of The Light: The Manual.

Enough of side tracking, so after I read finish, I start doing the timeline and schedules for the Kids Drama. I start at almost 330am, after reading, went 7-11 and buy drink and afew smoke breaks. By the time I am sort of too tired to continue the schedules and wana sleep, it's 1230pm. Had actually wanted to sleep but came out of my room and just switch on the pc, continue working until Mum asks me to eat lunch with her at 130pm.

I am so freaking tired now that my eyes can barly open and forcus. Haiz... I just hope that I can do the Sitcom and Kids Drama properly and smoothly. Yawn...

My schedules so far
Sitcom
19th June: View casting tapes at 11am and 2pm
20th June: Rehearsal 4-7pm
21st June: Rehearsak 9am-12pm
22th June: Imaging at 10am
2th July: Photo shoots from 10am onwards
3rd-5th July: Rehearsal from 1pm onwards
6th July: Imaging at 10am
15th July (SUNDAY!!): Rehearsal from 130pm onwards
18th July-19th Aug: FILMING STARTS

Kids Drama
June-July: All 13 episodes scripting to be in
Aug-Sept: FILMING
Oct: Delievery

• Need to get AD in by July
• Need to summit timeline and schedules by 18th, that's coming Mon
• Need to form my team
• Need to organise meetings (internal & external)
• Meet sponsors
• Meet Kids Central people

So, dear friends, after reading my schedules. If I cancel appointment with you, I am sorry. I think, if you all don't mind, I can meet late at night. When my eyes can't focus on the pc screen anymore. Hahahaha.... Thanks all for now...

Bintan Photos

The party that went for the trip.

Taken on the last day, behind is the swimming pool and the beach.

In the pub on the 2nd night.


The villa that we stayed in. It's big and nice with super clean fresh air.


The vehicle that we traveled around the resort.


The tap in the toilets. So cute! So cool!

Bintan Trip

Had a great time in Bintan over the weekends. Arrived at Bintan resort at 11pm, went walk around then ordered dinner room service.

Spent the next day in the beach, playing banana boat and snokling. Then laze on the beach. It's been a relaxing and enjoying weekends for me. Will upload the photos soon.

Am waiting for the next holiday trip.

Your past life diagnosis

This is what I was in previous life.

I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Northern England around the year 1125. Your profession was that of a digger, undertaker.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Person with huge energy, good in planning and supervising. If you were just garbage-man, you were chief garbage-man.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
You are bound to solve problems of pollution of environment, recycling, misuse of raw materials, elimination of radioactivity by all means including psychological methods.

Thanks!

Last night, went to eat dinner with Ellery and Sharon. The dinner was great, afterwhich we went Liquid Kitchen at Serangoon Garden. They are so nice, gave me a mini birthday cake, a brownie actually. Thanks!

Then just went lunch with colleagues, they gave me one of my dream present. A Nokia 7373 in the color I love, PINK and a PINK pouch. I am so touch that I actually cried. So embarrassing. Ellery and Sharon trick me, I never expect tham to pool money in for the present also.

Thanks to everyone!

Michael, Canter, Glenn, Jenny, Piao, Chau Min, Bee Bee, Avril, Theresa, Sam, Sharon Wong, Ellery.

THANK YOU! LOVE YOU ALL!

Disappointment

Things just don't fall in place the way that I wish. Have to reject THAT company 2 projects cos I have already agree to do current company another project as PM. THAT company boss was disappointed and I hope that she isn't angry with me. I really wana do your's but the offer came rather late I guess, and the PM job is offer to be since 2 months ago. I have the reply to them postphone until now. Well, I can't offend current company and risk having my name and reputation at stake I guess.

So I am stuck until Nov, told THAT company boss that I will go over as soon as my projects wrap. I really hope to work with the boss again.

Too many things happen at the same time for my career, I am sometimes at lost of what to do.

Quotes for thoughts

Was reading a book last night, find it very meaningful and brings lights to my life. There are some quotes that I like and of meaning to me. Thanks to Kai Li for recommending the book to me. Here are some quotes I like from the book THE ALCHEMIST BY PAULO COELHO.

"What's the world's greatest lie? At a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate."

"If you start out by promising what you don't have yet, you'll lose your desire to work toward getting it."

"The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never to forget your roots."

"When you want something, all the universe conspires to help you achieve it."

"People need not fear the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they need and want."

"When you want something with all your heart, that's when you are closest to the SOUL OF THE WORLD. It's always a positive force."

"If you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it. And, if you improve on the present, what comes later will also be better. Forget about the future, and live each day according to the teachings. Each day, in itself, brings with it an eternity."

"It's not what enters men's mouths that's evil. It's what comes out of their mouths."

"One is loved because one is loved. No reasons is needed for loving."

"Listens to your heart because wherever your heart is, that is where you'll find your treasure."

"Your eyes show the strength of your soul."

"If a person is living out his destiny, he knows everything he needs to know. There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure."

"When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us become better, too."

"Life really is generous to those who pursue their destiny."

From the quotes above and after reading the book, I have come out with this thoughts.

"Keep your thoughts positive, because your thoughts become your words.

Keep your words positive, because your words become your behaviours.

Keep your behaviours positive, because your behaviours become your habits.

Keep your habits positive, because your habits become your values.

Keep your values positive, because your values become your destiny."

I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today whole office only me, casting director and account lady working only. So sian. Just went to Bugis, bought some more FANCL products, costs me $400. Shit! Spent too much liao. Need to really save and spend less for the rest of the month until next pay cheques come in. Paid Sam the money for Bintan trip also. Shit! Double shit! 1st day of the month and I am going broke.

Okay... my greatest and best birthday present is MONEY. Should any of my friends out there who read this and stil don't know what to give me... you know what I really need and want lar... Beside BOYFRIEND. Heeheehee.......

Vesak Day

Tuesday night, while having dinner with Ellery and others, current company AVP call me and tell me that as for June onwards, I will be paid the other project money also. Hahaha... I have not agree to do and did not even sign any contract and she confirm me liao. It's the sky high rate that I ask for and she agree to the rate, so what else can i say. Unless THAT company I have been waiting pay me higher lor. Hahaha...

Yesterday, went to watch Shrek 3 with Victor. Quite a funny story with the ususal "happily ever after" fairytale. The guy beside me was rather irrating, with him laughing at even points which are not funny or sad points like the father in-law died. After watching, went to do abit of shopping, bought a sweat pant, gym bag and a knee support (for my training). The knee support I got the wrong size, need to exchange. Hopefully can be exchange.

Haiz... No one seems to be in office today. All I know is that AVP on leave to do personally stuff, Casting Director will reach before 12pm course got auditions. Later 3pm I got meeting with 1 of the Director.

Wanna watch MEN IN WHITE next week. Anyone interested?

What should I do?

Current company AVP just talk to me, she wana book me for the next project ASAP and other projects. If I agree then I be working for another 6 months staring from Sept, that's mean Sept to Feb. Aiya, I am still waiting for that company reply. That company boss says she will reply me next week. If that company offer is good, then how? Aiya. Haiz... But secretly I am very happy course I have been so packed until this year. Maybe my luck is changing. Maybe my career is going some where and going up. *Cross my fingers*

However, current company wants me to do PM for kids drama. Haiz! Another kids drama. Abit sian ler. Wana be Director soon ler.

Birthday in 8 more days.

PMS

Have been on rather moody these few days, don't know why. Just don't feel like smiling, talking, eating, sleeping, don't feel like doing anything. Only can work and wushu training. Maybe it's because I am aging and growing old, so there is abit of sadness in me. A lonely, aging woman also called 老姑婆. It's not like I don't have boyfriend I will die, but who don't want love from boyfriend? Which guy / gal don't wish to be pamper and loved by their partner?

10 more days to my birthday. Will he remembers? Will anyone remember? Can't wait to leave for Bintan on the 8th, wana leave this sad place for awhile to re-charge, re-fresh. To be the happy and cheerful Cherlyn when I first step into Dream Forest. Cos if not, sooner or later, all my colleagues will start to dislike me. Heard these song while writing my blog. So sad. So me.

我懷念的
演唱: 孫燕姿 作詞：姚若龍　作曲：李偲菘　編曲：Martin Tang

我問為什麼　那女孩傳簡訊給我　而你為什麼　不解釋　低著頭沉默
我該相信你很愛我　不願意敷衍我　還是明白你已不想挽回什麼

想問為什麼　我不再是你的快樂　可是為什麼　卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著　把愛都走曲折　假裝了解是怕　真相太赤裸裸
狼狽比失去難受

我懷念的是無話不說　我懷念的是一起做夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後　還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日　也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空　最緊的右手　最暖的胸口
(誰記得)　誰忘了

我懷念的是無言感動　我懷念的是絕對熾熱
我懷念的是你很激動　求我原諒抱得我都痛
我記得你在背後　我記得我顫抖著
記得感覺洶湧　最美的煙火　最長的相擁

誰愛的太自由　誰過頭太遠了　誰要走我的心　誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走　誰忘了看著我　誰讓愛變沉重　誰忘了要給你溫柔

(我懷念的)　我還有想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日　也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空　最緊的右手　最暖的胸口
我放手　我讓座　假灑脫　誰懂我多麼不捨得
太愛了　所以我　沒有哭　沒有說

我和我追逐的夢 演唱: 劉德華 作詞 : 周治平

飄流已久 在每個港口能稍作停留
喜樂和哀愁今生不能由我　任風帶我停停走走　
孤獨依舊　多希望你能靠在我的胸口
卻不願痴心得到你的溫柔　人群之中裝在冷漠 　
淚不敢流 讓命運牽引著我南北西東
看世間悲歡離合難分難捨　而誰在為我守候
我和我追逐的夢擦肩而過　永遠也不能重逢
我和我追逐的夢一再錯過　只留下我獨自寂寞　卻不敢回頭

一生最爱的人 演唱：伍佰

你 用你独特的温柔 狠狠的刺痛了我
证明你已不爱我 你的干脆 你那有心的依偎
普通朋友的相对 以为我都没感觉

答应我 如果要离开我 请一定跟我说
我会祝福 让你走 如果没把握
不要说你爱我 这样是欺骗我 我的心儿好难受

我 没有误会你什么 因为看到你背后
藏着满满的冷漠 你的眼泪 流得那么的虚伪
像电影里的情节 其实你都没所谓

如果说 你还是爱着我
让我俩再从头 我会好好的把握
因为你是我 一生最爱的人
我真的舍不得 看着你 让你走

不要说爱我 不要说爱我
不要说你爱我 不要说

因为你是我 一生最爱的人

Watever

Elder brother is involve in putting together this year NDP, one of his sponsors gave him a MP4 which he doesn't want. So I sort of got my 1st birthday present early this year, an Suntech MP4. Have download songs in it, still trying to learn how to use it though. My very 1st MP4! Wow!

The bintan trip is finally booked, setting off on 8th at 8pm, coming back to Singapore on 10th.

Have decided not to sue him cos of some personal reasons and that he beg me. I lost alot of money and time. Now am just waiting for pay day cos I got no money to eat liao. Fuck!

16 more days

As I countdown to my birthday, I can't help but feel rather sad and lost. A year without boyfriend to celebrate for me and pamper me. Don't even know if will anyone remember the day. Although have make plans to sort of celebrate, my wish is so simple, A guy to love and pamper me. Is it so difficult? Be meeting "Sis" for dinner on my birthday itself, thus be skipping wushu training. Then going Bintan, leaving on the 8th, coming back on the 10th. Going with Samuel, Theresa and her 2 other friends. Be doing alot of water sports and suntan-ing. Can't wait. Need to get away from Singapore for awhile to unwind, hoping that I will come back refresh and charged again.

What's my wish for this year birthday or what present I hope to get? Saving up money to fullfilled these wishes and presents.

1. A boyfriend to love and pamper me, someone whom I can marry.
2. Laptop so I can work properly at home, don't wana "fight" for PC at home
3. Thumbdrive
4. New digital camera
5. New mobile phone that I have been aiming for very long (since last year). Nokia 7373 with blue tooth in powder pink
6. Hi Fi set in my room
7. Go for a month holiday to Hong Kong, Taiwan, Korea, Japan
8. Proper training outfit (gym bag, sweat pants, top)
9. Proper sports shoe to wear for filming and training (no shoe laces please)
10. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE